The Invisible Girl (Andy Biersack fanfic)

Chapter Twelve

~Andy's P.O.V~
A Month Later
Sam won't get over what happened in japan a month ago. She won't eat or get out of the room a lot. The only time I see her is either when she's taking care of Kaiyō or asleep. She's loosened up a bit, she started talking more often last week. It's rare to see her smile but she's getting there. "Morning Sam." I was close to pressing my lips against her cheek but she moved away fast. I can't even touch her, I don't wanna yell at her because I hate yelling but because it'll make her close up again. "Are you okay?" She nods while doing the dishes. We moved into a nice two story house, Kaiyō has gotten a lot bigger now. "Please let me touch you once." Sam stops and stares at me frustrated.
"Why do you worry Andy? I'll go back to normal some day, I hope." I wanted to cry, she made me feel like absolute shit like I did something wrong to earn this from her.
Before I could say a word, Sam broke down crying on the floor. Damn this woman, whenever she cries it makes me feel guilty even though I did nothing wrong. I walk up to her and wrap my arms around her waist. She actually lets me instead of moving away. "Don't cry kitten." I coed in her ear while caressing her back.
"I'm sorry Andy, you don't deserve all this." I lifted her head up and stared deep down into her soul. I really wanted to know what she was thinking. Would I really leave her because of this? Never. Would I be a bit frustrated if she neglected me? A little. But would I open up to her when she's ready? Yes.
"I'm here when you need me." Kaiyō went with my parents again, she's been with them for three days so far. My mom thought it would be a good idea for us and I couldn't say no because she wouldn't take no as an answer.
Once I let go Sam pulled me back down with her. "What is it?"
"I want you to do whatever you'd like with me." I knew what I wanted. I didn't want to do anything sexual with her, I wanted to cuddle with her. I missed cuddling and kissing each other then probably talk about crazy things that came up in our minds. Like she once talked about taking over the planet. That cracked me up.
~Sam's P.O.V~
I didn't want to do anything sexual right now, I wanted to cuddle. It's Andy's choice though so whatever he wanted to do I would do, he deserved this.
  He picked me up bridal style to the bedroom upstairs. "I love you." Andy pecked my cheek
  "I love you too." He carefully placed me on the bed, he might wanna do the opposite of what I wished he would do.
Unexpectedly, he climbs into bed beside me and wraps his arms around my waist. No unbuttoning pants, no moans of pleasure, no begging to be touched, no fighting for dominance, and no pencil inside a sharpener (hahaha).
The air wasn't filled with lust, it was filled with love. All Andy- no, WE WANTED... was to be loved. To be noticed. I was so foolish.
I ran away from him and blocked him from me. Andy always called me his little light, and of course his light blew out way too fast. I didn't know he would notice. Of course he did, because I showed way too many hints.
I was never the same ever since our first break up. It's pretty sad going back to our pasts and talking about a silly high school year but it mattered to me. My step mother killed my biological father. I had my fathers blood in me.
~Flash Back~
I'm so hungry... I haven't eaten in a while. Ever since Andy and I broke up... I haven't been the same.
Wait, what am I saying? Gosh I'm so pathetic, I can live without him. Andy is nothing to me now.
Anyways, enough of heart break. Today's my dad's birthday, I know we don't talk much but he's my biological father so I should do something for him. Maybe surprise him.
~Hour Later~
I got him a cute teddy bear, I hope he likes it. "Dad?" I called "Happy birthday..." I sing "To you..." I walk up the steps "Happy birthday...to you..." I swing the teddy bear behind my back and walk slowly to his room "Happy birthday dear... daddy..." I make it to his room "Happy birthday...to..." I open it slowly "You..."
~Present~
I couldn't forget that. Never. My dad was on his bed, soaked in blood. His blood. My step mom just stood there all cold and heartless. I left right there and then. I raised enough money for my apartment and got the hell out of there. I called the cops the day after of course.
I know it's bad to go back to the past but, I can't forget it. Life can suck but at least I'm still alive. "Sam, what are you thinking about?" Andy says while softly chuckling in my ear.
"About you." I turn my head and bring my lips close to his ear "Always you." I bite his lobe softly "Me." I kiss his temple.
"Us." We both say together in some beautiful harmony. His deep and low voice matched with my soft and a bit tired voice it's absolutely perfect.
Andy chuckles again "Don't worry baby, I got you. I got our daughter I can take care of both of you. Both of you are my little spoiled brats." I burst out laughing
"I am pretty spoiled I must admit."
"But not money wise, I'm talking love wise."
"What do you mean?" I sit down on top of him while we held hands like it was our last time we'll ever see each other again.
"You're so spoiled when you want my attention, you beg and complain." I pout, really? I'm like that around him? "But," He cups my chin "It makes me want to feed you more of me."
"But I never fed you more of me." I look away trying to hold back the tears that were trying to come out "what's the point of being in a relationship when one isn't trying to work it out? Why am I still with you when I don't even try and fight back to keep you safe? The point of a relationship is to protect each other including our baby too and make sure none of us get hurt, right?" I felt like some mad woman. I went a bit too far. How could I be so stupid right now? I had a pinch of happiness right in front of my big brown eyes and for some reason I had to beg for more then I get it taken from me. I'm so spoiled and I'm a big idiot.
No one understands why I'm so overprotective with Andy and Kaiyō. Well, there's two different reasons. I'm overprotective with Andy because he was the first person to make me feel and show me how much I matter. He showed me this big family, the guys, and he made me happy again. Of course he will mess up but it's because I don't loosen up to him since I'm so insecure.
Kaiyō is a lot different. Why? Kaiyō is my child, she came out of ME. She didn't come from some adoption center. When you have a child, you feel proud because that's something you survived for. It sucks to crave a lot of food when being pregnant since it makes you feel like a fat pig, but on the bright side you create something so beautiful with a mixture of your lover and you together. Plus, you worked hard for that. You had back pains just because you're belly was filled with a living person inside it. You went to that hospital and felt more pain then you could ever imagine. What do most women do, give it away. It's like giving away you're own money for no reason. You worked hard for that money and you earned it, but you decide to give it away to someone else? Hell to the no, that baby is you're jewel. You're precious gem, it's a pain in the ass to wake up at 1 in the morning to burp it or for some other reason but it's worth it.
Andy is everything to me and so is Kaiyō. If I got those two taken away then what's the point of being here? "The gears in you're head are spinning kitten, what is it?" Andy snaps me out of my thoughts
"I'm thinking about you and Kaiyō." I bit my lip "You know how overprotective I am with both of you?"
"How much?"
"More than the stars in this world." I lean down closer to his face "If someone or something takes you guys away or one of you then I would feel as if I just got my money taken away. That sounds selfish and what a rich brat would say but it's true. I earned both of you and I won't loose you both. It's like earning money and then giving it away or getting it taken away."
"Deep Sam, it's okay kitten." He caresses my back "This mother thing has taken a big role on you kitten. That's not very good for you. Loosen up just a tiny bit and see how it's like, you might like it."
  "I'll try." 
  "Good."
  ~Time Skip~
  Andy and I did have sex after but it was more passionate. Passionate sex with Andy was so weird it's like putting underwear over your pants. Weird right? I've learned that Andy isn't a soft guy, he's more hardcore and dominant. I wonder if he likes the more extreme shit...? I'd be freaking scared of him, I don't like being hit since it reminds me of my step mom.
  If he calls me a slut and hit me, I will cry. He hates seeing me cry but I'm really soft with that kind of stuff. "Wanna go out to the beach?" Andy asks, it's already the afternoon.
  "Yeah sure." I put on my black bikini with skull patterns all over it and my black tapis dress.
  "Everyday, you always take my breath away." Andy pecks my cheek, I giggle like a little school girl. "Ready?" He was in a black t-shirt and black skull patterned swim trunks.
~Beach~
Being at the beach is so relaxing, waves crashing against the sand.
Andy went in the water while I sat down on the sand, I meditated. I could picture us, walking near the water. Laughing. Kaiyō was up front running around, perfect families are something every parents asks for but not me. Not all of us are perfect, I know Kaiyō will make mistakes in her life since she'll be learning.
Water hits my skin, I gasped and opened my eyes fast. Andy stood there chuckling, I glared at him and ran into the water. "Andy!!!" I splashed him back
"Nope!" He lifted me up and dropped me inside, I rushed up fast for air. He was laughing so hard, I pushed him down and he gasped at the cold water.
"Haha!" I helped him up after, I wrapped my arms around his neck and pecked his forehead.
"I love you kitten."
"Love you too."