Don't Stop

The end

   Heath had me in circles, I can't believe I longed for him both body and soul after what he did to me. I hated him so much for that but loved him because I could lust after him again. He was mine. He looked at me as we stood in the grass, I parted our mended bodies as students began to walk out onto the fields. I looked down at my feet, pushing away what just happened. My fantasies and wants could not be met, but I so badly wanted them to. He lifted my chin to his face and was about to kiss me when I pushed him back.

"We can't" I croaked, stepping back. "I have to get to class." He grabbed my hand.

"Naomi," he paused stuffing his hands into his pockets and looking away, he was going to confess something. "I love you. I think I do. I want you to know that. All those other women that I've slept around with, only filled the void for a short period of time, but you don't do that. You keep me full....filled. I don't know, I'm talking shit." he began to walk backwards, still facing me. "I understand why you are confused... I think I need to go back, I came here to...see...know if you'd hear me out." he swallowed,  "and you did." he spun around and begun walking to his car.

"So your leaving?" I shouted after him, jogging to catch him before he left. I knew my tired ass was late for my next class, but now I was totally convinced that he didn’t just want me for sex, he wanted me to fill a void. He pressed me against the car leaning in to persuade to come to his place downtown.

Can't ditch classes!

"I can't." I said sadly, pushing him off. The corner of his mouth tilted down and he stepped back walking over to his car door. I closed my eyes and waited until I heard his car tires squeak off into the distance. I began to walk away, back to my campus dorm like I was supposed to, about ten minutes in my phone buzzed in my pocket, looking down it was a message from Heath.

If you want to- 104 Pike Rd.

I almost laughed,  he never gave up. I tried saving the address but my neck snapped up when I heard my name. Mr . Bennett.

He stood tall, confidently walking to me with his hands in his pockets. I smiled questioningly as we stood nearly feet apart.

"I'm sorry about earlier,  but-"

"No, it's okay! I can get where she's coming from." I smiled shifting past him to walk away but he only followed.

"You made me realize something Nam." I looked back at him slightly annoyed, "I was thinking that could be your nickname" he toyed, walking beside me now. I shook my head firmly.

"never."

"If you need any help," he paused eyeing me, "let me know." and with that he tried tk saunter kff but I caught his elbow making him smile. "Already?" he teased slightly, still somehow managing to be professional.

"Not going to happen, I respect you, but only as my professor." I said sternly looking into his eyes. He looked back blankly at me as if he was lost but shrugged,  wrenching from my grasp and continued walking.

You made too many mistakes, fix them while you can.

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  Even though Heath wanted me to go to his apartment he rented. I told him I couldn't ditch my classes and what not,  walking away. My mind was spinning and not just from the kiss but from everything that was going on. I jogged when I began to get close to my dorm room, slamming the door shut as I flopped onto my bed tiredly. I kept dodging back and forth between Heath and I. He even came to my university to search for me, to tell me he wanted to make it work, even with Val in the picture. I felt late, too late to take back all what I did to the receptionist that greeted me at high school each and every day.  Now it's too late to take back when I slept with her husband, fiancé, whatever. I looked at my phone reading the address of his apartment. 

Maybe I should talk to him.

I stood, dressing quickly, if I just spoke to him quickly about our nonexistent relationship maybe I could end it. He could be with Val and I could be with a guy my age. I got into my car, revving the engine to life as I pulled off down the street. When I reached the destination I studied the building,  it looked like a townhouse. I checked the number twice, eye flickering between the door number and the text. It was correct, I rose out of the car, walking up the five concrete steps, I placed a balled fist on the door heavily. He answered about 10 seconds later, a grin greeting me just as he tugged me inside, closing the door. It was neat and perfect inside, a dark rug in the middle of the conjoined living room kept the place together. I didn't finish examining the apartment before he connected his lips to mine but shifted back just enough to squint at me when he noticed I hadn't kissed back. I bit my lip and parted from his embrace, kicking the to the curb the urge I felt to cup his face and tongue his warm mouth.

"Heath" I whispered, meeting his green eyes that so desperately wanted to understand my pain. "We're wrong together, this whole thing was a fling and I don't think we should do this anymore." I looked over to his sofa and tv which had been playing reruns on cartoon network.

Just like the night on the sofa.

I heard him sigh but I didn't look at him, this was literally the last time I wanted to deal with him, I couldn't keep up with this secret we've held. My mother didn't know I got pregnant, I held back a marriage, almost ditched college and my future, and most of all I almost lost myself. All that I could be would've been taken in a flash all because I acted on lust. I turned away heading for the door, Heath had balanced back and forth between his feet, hand ruffling his tousled hair.

"Goodbye Heath." I shrugged gently, giving him a half smile,  I unlocked the door edging my way back to my car. I unlocked it, purred the engine and gave one last glance to the door frame to which he stood. He gave me a frown but waved, I gave another smile and pulled off down the street, back to my university and back to the life I could continue. My past months had been a rollercoaster, I'm just glad enough I had the chance to stop it.

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Hey readers! Yup, last chapter. I had writer's block and didn't want to write! I really didn't want Naomi to fall for her new professor because that would just be more chapters with basically repeats of her relationship with Heath. I do hope you enjoyed the book and if you did, share it! Hope you FOLLOW, COMMENT, and as always THANKS FOR READING!

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