My grandmother (love is patient sequel)

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Monday 24th June 2002

Today was crap. I don't fit in at school. I'm lucky to have the few friends I do have but none have the exact same interests as me. I went to Luke's house after school though because all of our parents were out. He seemed like he was thinking about something. I got distracted because his dog is so adorable. He kept sighing but told me he was fine if I asked. He's actually really cute. Everything about him is good. I get to see him lots too which is good and we walk home together. On the way to school today, though, he told me that sometimes he can hear me singing through the wall. I think I'll try to be quieter for a bit! I feel sorry for Luke because his dad works abroad and his mum is out lots. His sister is too. Usually he just has his dog. Today my parents were both working out late so we went dog walking by the river. It was fun but he still seemed deep in thought. I don't know what's up with him. I hope he's over it soon.

Tuesday 24th June 2003

Today wasn't good. Luke was ill but he wouldn't let me in when I knocked. All my lessons were boring without him. He really is my best friend. People teased me in maths asking where my 'boyfriend' was. Why can't they understand that we're just friends. I find him kind of cute but I'm sure he'd never feel the same about me. I'd definitely say yes if he asked me out but I doubt he ever would. He went out with Claudia last summer. I know they broke up but I could never beat her. She's an absolute bitch but she's so pretty. She's always tanned and she has blonde hair and blue eyes. My brown hair could never compete with her's. Still, I worry about him. I thought if he wouldn't let me in then he might respond to my singing. I sang the songs I knew were his favourites but still no response. Maybe he'll be ok tomorrow.

Wednesday 25th June 2003

Nothing from Luke yet. I'm starting to think he's gone somewhere because I haven't heard a single noise from his house and I haven't seen a single light on. When I called him it went to voicemail. I got teased again about him. Maybe tomorrow.

Thursday 26th June 2003

Still. Nothing.

Friday 27th June 2003

Not. Yet.

Saturday 28th June 2003

He texted me today. He's not ill. His mam is. She's in St Peter's hospital. I'm upset but I know he's got more reason to be upset than me so when he's back I'll put on a brave face in an attempt to make him feel just a bit better.

Thursday 24th June 2004

Luke's mam was discharged from hospital today. She's still ill but she's being looked after at home. Luke and his sister are doing a good job of looking after her but their dad said he's not allowed to come back from wherever he's working now. I offered to help but he keeps saying it's not my job. I want to help.

Saturday 24th June 2006

Luke's mam passed away today. They thought she was cured. She wasn't. He doesn't want to do anything anymore. His dad still hadn't returned and his sister is leaving to go to university soon. I asked her for a key to the house which I have in my hand now. I promised her that I'll go to make sure he's ok whenever he doesn't come to school. I don't want to jinx it but I predict it will happen quite a lot.

Sunday 24th June 2007

He's trying to shut himself away like he doesn't exist anymore. He seems angry at me when I let myself in but when he cheers up he thanks me. I still don't understand why he's legally allowed to live alone. He does a good job though. I still go in everyday to make sure the dog has food and water and to make sure Luke himself has eaten. I don't find him so cute anymore. I'd still say yes if he asked me out though. He won't but if he did I'd think it would make him happier. He asks me to sing for him a lot. I know I sound terrible but it seems to cheer him up a bit. If it could cheer him up, I'd pretty much do it no matter what.

Tuesday 24th June 2008

I think he's slowly getting better. He's still gloomy but improving. He's in sixth form now and I'm trying to see him as much as I can when I come home from college. I drive him places in my new car too. He still hasn't started lessons yet. I don't know what's going to happen to him next.

Friday 24th June 2011

I forgot I had this diary. I left it at home when I went to university. Then I didn't have anywhere to go and ended up back with my parents. Luke seems to have tried to make himself happier whilst I've been away. His dog passed away but he almost immediately got a puppy of the same breed. I don't think he wanted to say goodbye. At least he seems to have company now though. He got some of his friends to move in. Now he lives with Tom and Johnnie who we went to school with as well as Tom's bratty girlfriend. I don't think anyone in the house but Tom likes her. There's no reason to. Things seem to be getting better though.

Sunday 24th June 2012

Luke seems a bit upset that I have other friends now. He doesn't want to meet Dan and Phil. He says PJ sounds like a twat. No matter who I talk to him about, he always seems angry at them. He'll probably come around eventually.

Monday 24th June 2013

Why am I still writing this diary? It's pointless now that I actually have a life.