My grandmother (love is patient sequel)

2x-2.5=x+6.5

"Tom! What's wrong? Why are you screaming? It's 3 in the morning. Tom? What's wrong? TOM?"

Stupid Tom. Stupid brain. All these lovely people will hate me now. I'm keeping them up. I'm wasting their time. They don't deserve to have to put up with me. I'm a waste. Grandad said his grandchild would be special. I was his last hope. Why me? I have to do something to help him. I have to tell us story but how? I'm not good enough. I don't even know who I'd tell it to. It's not like I'll ever have any children because no one will ever love me.

"Tom? Please stop screaming. Tom. Take your hands off your ears and listen to me. Deep breaths. In. Out. Slower. In. Out. Better. Again. In. Out. Keep going. In. Out. Ok?"

"I'm his only hope and I can't do it."

"What?"

"I need to do vlogging like grandad said but I can't."

"You don't have to do it. I'm sure you could if you wanted though-"

"But I can't Hafi. I'm useless."

"That's a lie."

"It's not."

"It is and you know it."

"I can't do it Hafi."

That's the last I remember of that night. I think I fell asleep after crying into Hafi for a while. It wasn't one of my strongest moments but I guess that's how it goes when you have anxiety.

Headache.

Chest pain.

Exhaustion.

Pain.

I'm a failure.

He was so hopeful that I'd continue the videos and I've crushed that dream.

I wish I was normal.

I decided to stay in bed feeling empty until I heard Hafi's voice in the next room.

"Are you sure?"

She sounded like she was on the phone.

"I think it would be a better idea to- No, listen to me."

She seemed frustrated and upset.

"If you really think so."

What was happening?

"I just think he'll be upset when he finds out you were keeping something like that from him."

Me?

"And his anxiety clearly isn't going well at the moment."

Me.

"Are you 100% sure you don't want him to come home now?"

What?

"I know. I know. Don't you think he might feel a bit left out though."

Why?

"See you soonish then I guess."

When?

"Bye."

"Oh Tommy, you're up."

"Yes."

"How are you feeling?"

"Shit."

"Oh dear. Maybe if it's alright with Tirion and Rhys we can just stay here today. They're very nice people so-"

"Who were you just on the phone to?"

"Oh. You heard that?"

"Part of it."