My grandmother (love is patient sequel)

2+4x=5x-6

A/N: It's Valentine's day and guess who's single and lonely af? That's right, it's me. Some of you guys are probably single too so have something to read. I mean, it isn't exactly the most single-ish chapter but oh well.

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"Tom, why are you still awake? It's 1:30 already."

"I want to watch them all Hafi."

"Well just don't complain about being tired tomorrow."

"Ok."

Headphones back on.

Rather large announcement-EnfysCymraeg

"Hi friends. Today something really good happened. We've been gradually getting happier and getting used to how life is now. The girls went for a sleepover at Dan and Phil's house and we had a day out to ourselves. PJ made dinner when we got home too which was surprisingly delicious."

"Surprisingly?"

"Are you coming to join me babe?"

"Yes but I'm a great cook all the time."

"Ok then."

"Rude."

"Awww I'm sawwy."

That look of affection again.

"Let's get to the point."

"In what way?"

"Stop Peej."

"Basically..."

"Basically..."

"We're engaged!"

"Yep."

"We aren't sure when we're going to get married yet because we have things that are more prioritised but we will one day."

"Yeah."

If only you knew.

The girl's first day at secondary school-kickthepj

"Hi tiny planet explorers. Today my daughters are starting secondary school."

"It's not that much of a deal dad."

"It is to me. Is anyone a unicorn this time?"

"Dad, can we just go.

"Are you both sure you're ok going on the train?"

"Dad. Haf isn't even in her chair anymore. We'll be ok."

"Bye then girls."

"Bye."

"Time goes so fast eh Ennie."

"They'll be grown up soon."

"I hope not."

"Maybe we'll be grandparents one day."

"Let's not go that far ahead."

"Let's just stay here for a while."

"Yeah."

They're leaving already!!-kickthepj

"Have you got everything Haf?"

"Yes. I think so. I don't want to leave dad."

"We'll survive without you. And vice versa. We're only a phone call away my darling. Give me a hug."

"I love you."

"I love you too. Now get out there and kick some scientific ass."

"I can't believe they're so grown up."

"I know! Maybe we'll have some please soon though."

"That's impossible in this house!"

"Bye, Caru, have fun!"

"I'll come back with the best tan ever!"

"We love you."

"I don't like saying goodbye, PJ."

"None of us do."

"But we have to one day."

"What?"

"Nothing."

"Really?"

"It's nothing PJ"

"It didn't sound like nothing."

"Well it was nothing. Everything is ok."

"You'll tell me if something is wrong though, won't you?"

"Of course. I love you PJ."

Last vlog-kickthepj

"I never thought I'd be saying this. I'm sorry, I didn't want to cry. As you may have heard, Enfys has been unwell due to a painful type of cancer recently. Yesterday she passed away. Her organs packed up and the chemotherapy did nothing. She was only young but she had a fulfilling life. I think we can agree that she inspired many. Enfys was a great mother, wife, and friend, along with everything else she was. I know she would encourage me to keep going without her, I will keep going without her, just now with everything. I'm afraid I am going to stop vlogging. I've gotten used to vlogging being the thing I always did with Enfys so it doesn't feel right doing it without her. I tried to encourage the girls, well I guess you could say the women now, to take up vlogging but they refused because they're both so busy. I hope that one day they, or someone else in the family, will continue it. I know Enfys would be proud. I know she is proud. I decided I'm going to wear her ring now. This is the ring I gave to her when we first got engaged. There's a deep regret inside me that we never got married. It's not all my fault but I've been blaming myself for a lot lately. I'm sorry if I seem a mess. I don't know how I'll manage without her but I'll try. I don't want to seem dramatic but I honestly considered ending my own life. I refuse to give in to those thoughts though. I know that if I wait as long as I need to, eventually I'll see her again and it'll be worth the wait. Today, the only thing that got me to stop moping around was the thought of seeing her again and hearing her sing again. She really was the best singer. She was great at everything but every song was perfection. One day, before I see her again, I hope to have a grandchild to tell her story to. Maybe they'd want to continue vlogging. I think it'll be a while though. Haf was advised not to have children because childbirth would be very difficult for her with the cerebral palsy and everything. I now have to hope that Caru and Jack have a child before my time is up. Otherwise, our story may never live on. I'm sure they will have a child one day. It would just be nice if it was soon so I had enough time. And that child will be truly special, whether they know our story or not. Now it's time to say goodbye to you subscribers. Thank you for coming on this journey with me, tiny planet explorers. I wish you all the best life possible. Goodbye I guess."

That's it? There's no more? No. I need more. Neither of them are really gone are they?

They are.

Why did they have to die? I loved them so much. I never even knew my grandma but that's why I'm here. I'm learning more about her. I need to know more about her. I want to know her. I want to meet her. I want to look her in the eye and say 'You are amazing and you always were'. Will I ever be able to do that though? Will I ever meet her? She was so inspiring and amazing but will she ever know?

Stop it Tom. Stop it brain. Stop overthinking. Stop getting deeper into this mess. Stop. Stop. Why do I have to be like this? What's wrong with me? Tom. Stop.