Me and Who. Him and I

Shit Just got real

Shit Shit Shit Shit Dammit. I really fucked up this time and I don't know what to do and since you guys are probably like well what did you do I'll tell you, I freaking slept with Colby and before you told me I already could have guessed it there is more because Liam is in here too which I guess could be good because he knows but it's bad because I had my first threesome and I wasn't sober to even remember or witness. I crawl out of the bed collect all of my clothes and tip toe out, all ways hate those weird walk of shames. I take Liam's keys to his motorcycle and hop on. As the motorcycle speeds up at about fifty mph I start to think and try to remember things and events that could have possibly lead up to waking up next to my boyfriend and one of my bestfriends but the only thing that pops up in my head is 'I am not a Whore I am not a whore but I like to do it' there is no time to be singing LMFAO songs. I crank up the speed and try hard to get home my brothers will be freaking pissed that I didn't come home last night and that I got screwed I don't even remember if we used a condom or not. 'I'm fucking Screwed' I pull up to my house kill the engine and run up to the steps slowly opening the door because I only see Andy's car and that's the one car I don't want to see, I run up the stairs with light feet and scurry into my room 'Thank you lord I made it to the promise land'. I peel of Colby's shorts and my fight clothes grab a towel a new pair of panties and a black bra then run into the bathroom. As soon as the warm water hit my body it was like Heaven, I stayed in the shower for thirty-five minutes washing my dirty body until I felt clean and washing my hair until it was nice and smooth. After the shower I went to my vanity to blow dry my hair but thought 'Hey why not let it air dry it looks nice in waves' so I start my make the foundation the

blush and a lot of eye liner and mascara but not a whole lot to look like raccoon eyes, Then lastly I put on my bold red lipstick. I walk over to my closet and the my other closet I just need time to think and I'm still really tired so I decide to go to sleep in my second secretive closet for warmth (I do have a bed in there). Then I drift off into a deep sleep.

When I wake up it's 5:00pm I hear my stomach making noises got to go and feed my baby. I go and skip down stairs and is see Andy and Kale talking wonder what that's about "Hey guys" they turn around "Hey Brina" they say simultaneously "How was your sleep you were knocked out cold" I look at him with wide eyes no one knew about my second closet it was the one spot I felt safe and alone. "I saw the button" Kale speaks reading my mind "Dammit" he and Andy are a bit taken back "Like I'm sorry that I just had that loud out burst but you can't tell anyone that is my safe place MINE" they look at me with knowing faces before my Nana died she was the only one who knew about the room and we would always play dress up but back then it was filled with guys clothes since I was a huge tomboy we would eat snacks watch tv even sleep in there, therefore the bed it was our place it always will be but now it's my place. "Look we know it means something to you and Nana but I thought you were dead you had us worried sick" I glance over at him controlling my anger "Well you can see that I'm totally fine ok" they stare at me for a while "I don't think-" he doesn't finish because I cut him off "I'm fucking fine look I'm leaving I'll see you guys later" I storm out of the house and hop on Liam's bike I need a few more hours to myself I have to leave this town.

A/N

So Hi guys Have a few questions for you.

•Where do you think she going?

•What really happen between Colby, Liam, and Sabrina?

And last •How was that!?

Xoxo ~ Gossip Girl

Jk

Xoxo~ Sam.