Adore U

Nine

Jackson's POV

I'm pretty sure when I say; it's not pleasant in the least to anyone to get a call at 3am.

Even worse when is it from your ex-lover.

Hearing Youngji's voice over the phone, soft and a little cracked, wasn't making any good to my puffy brain complaining about the lack of sleep, pushing buttons I didn't intend to deal with at that hour...

"Jackson?" She called my name again to gain my attention, almost like a whisper.

I didn't even have the strength to exclaim to her to leave me alone or end the call. She sounded pained and despite all the hurt she gave me, I couldn't ignore her suffering, however how much I want. She was a one of the dearest persons in my life, she was.

I really didn't want to deal with this right now; my mind was already mortified with Sinb's runaway of the set earlier that day. I shake my head with frustration when I heard a whimper coming from Youngji in the other end of the line.

"What's wrong, Youngji? Why are you crying?" I asked very slowly.

"I miss you..." She sobbed and I flinched in response, my mind running a mile a minute, and my chest constricting slowly with every sharp breath she let out. I really can't deal with this, not now, not tomorrow or ever. I really want to move on, to stop feeling hurt every time a memory of her flashed in my mind; I really want to get over her.

I already have someone else in my mind and heart.

But reality is other and here I was at 3am trying to comfort my ex-lover, when she couldn't stop her sobs over the phone.

"Youngji..." I whispered, exhaustion evident in my voice "Don't cry, please, calm down"

"I'm sorry Jackson, I'm so sorry..." She repeated over and over again until I lost count. I rubbed my eyes trying to slap the sleep out of them and proceeded to use the most comforting tone I could manage to calm her down.

"Don't cry, you know I hate hearing you cry, you should go to sleep, Youngji" I sat down in the edge of my bed, talking as lowly as I could to not wake my members up.

"Jackson, I want to see you, please Jackson..." She pleaded through her sobs and at that point I really wanted to hit my head against a wall and pass out right there.

"Youngji, don't make this harder than it is, please... Just get over me, look for somebody else, I'm too tired and hurt for this" With each word I let out, I could feel how her sobs where increasing and how she pleaded even more, stumbling in her words.

"No, no, no, Jackson, I beg you just one last time, let me see you one last time, and I promise, I promise I wouldn't bother you more just please..."

Just one last time, that's all she was asking for. You could tell it was nothing and that it was better to end things that way and part ways after, however I didn't feel sure about this, I have a strange feeling about all this, I could felt it in my guts. It's like something bad will happen if I agree with this...

"Jackson?" Her voice got me out of my trail of thoughts and I behave a long sigh, trying in the process to collect my thoughts and reply her.

"Fine, one last time and this is over, ok?" I said with a serious tone, my eyebrows coming together in a deep frown. Did I just agree with this? Just awesome, Jackson...

Giggles confirmed my question, Youngji started to make cute sounds and laugh in joy, while I was feeling more and more miserable... How quickly she changed her mood, hm... I thought sarcastically and rolled my eyes unconsciously.