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okay i know this is going to be a bad chapter but theres some lashton in this chapter. so your welcome. oh i know this isnt edited i typed this on my phone so yea enjoy!
chapter three
ashton pov
its been a week since the kiss with vanessa.
she wont talk to me.
i called her once where she had answered. But it ended up in an argument.
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since ive had a week with just myself, i had thought a lot.
ive came to a conclusion that i ashton irwin am bisexual.
it took a lot to finally admit it to myself.
the real question is if i am ready to come out?
i would believe i can do it, well at least to my mum maybe not so much school. telling people at school would just be too much, you know? they would just judge and i would be told 'i told you so' by my ex friends.
Maybe i should make a move with Luke? or even just try to be his friend?
yup that is it im english class tomorrow i will try to get him to talk to me. it will be hard because ive always tried before, but maybe he didnt like vanessa so maybe thats why he never talked to me. i dont know nor do i care why all i know is i will get luke to be my friend.
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*the next day*
today is the day.
the day i talk to luke for the first time.
i hope hell talk to me or something.
but if not i understand. im just a guy who basically lost everything for checking luke out.
if i want to be to be bi i will be even if it means losing everything that i dont already have.
right now i was teribg to figure out what to wear. should i dress nicely or how i normally do?
i decided to wear my fall out boy tshirt with my black skinnys. i know he proabably wont talk to me anyways but i can make a better first impression than before when i was with vanessa.
-----skip to school-----
okay so it is now english class. vanessa isnt here but why would i care? i mean she is ignoring me i tried to talk to er but what ever.
"so today class you will be working in pairs of two. i will asign your partners so dont get your panties in a twist. for this project you will have to write a song together. i know this isnt music class but somgs are poems you know." our boring english teacher started showing us a powerpoint about diffrent things about songs.
yay omg i live writing songs like im so freakin excited. i dont even care right now who gets to be my partner i just wanna write a fucking song.
"okay guys so im going to pick your partners now...
vanessa and jake,
michael and hannah,
liam and jessica,
nick and jasmine,
and finally luke and ashton.
okay now this is due next week so have it done and you may take the rest of class to start talking to your partner about your project."
FUCK YES LUKE IS MY PARTNER!
THE LUKE HEMMINGS IS MY PARTNER I FUCKING SCREAMING RIGHT NOW.
well not literally but ya know on the inside.
i decided to walk over to luke who was just sitting there doodling. hes so cute omg.
"uh, hi luke im ashton. oh wait you probably already know that sorry..."
"haha yea. im sorry im really awkward so this project may get be bad." he had a little like grin on his face.
im crying.
well not really but you feel me?
"its fine luke! so have you ever written a song before?" i feel like im gonna die oh my gosh.
"uh yea it wasnt really that good though. how bout you? like have you written one before?"
"yeah i like writing songs they help me get thinks out ya know?"
"i feel you." oh my he was right he is awkward.
awkward luke is awkward.
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thats it for this chapter for now! i said i would update so heres a little something :)
-courtney <3
