Ashton's P.O.V
The song went really well which actually surprised me. No one ever really liked any of the stuff that I wrote so I was pretty happy. After class ended Luke asked me if I wanted to hang out with him so we could hear each other play. I'm very nervous to play in front of Luke because with my luck that will be the time I mess up and I'll look stupid. But maybe not. I'm mean if I mess up its only cause I'm nervous and he knows well at least I hope he does, that I'll be nervous. Like he probably is too.
When I go into my history class Vanessa is there and she started walking over to my desk. I swear if she asks me to be her friend again I'm not going to because I've tried so hard after that little incident at my house to talk to her but she kept shutting me down. So it's her loss. She just threw a note on my desk and walked away. I wonder what her problem is.
I started reading the note because I still had a couple more minutest till class officially started. I could tell she was hurt by the tears stains that were on the paper. I don't feel bad at all to be honest he had her chance and I called her and tried to talk to her but she ignored me. It's tone to move on and anyway I have Luke now and his band. I haven't met his band yet but Luke says they'll like me.
The note said:
Ashton,
I know we haven't talked in a while since you kissed me but I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry for walking out the door the moment you decided to kiss me during that movie night. I left because I was confused. Confused about my feelings for you. You are my best friend, well at least you were my best friend I don't know what to call us now, but I knew you were confused about who you were so it made me confused. Yes Ashton Irwin I have feelings for you. Feelings that even I can't explain. Yes I know you probably have no feelings for me and you were probably just confused so you kissed me. I just had to let you know how I feel. I don't care if you never speak to me again I just got to let my feelings out.
I've ignored all your calls and texts because I was afraid. Afraid of rejection from you. An honestly I wasn't sure how I felt about anything to be honest.
When I heard the song you had written with Luke for English class it made me realise my feelings for you. I feel like maybe the song was about me so that's why I connected to it and realised everything I felt. If the song wasn't about me than I'm sorry for making assumptions but it actually helped me so thanks for that.
I have no idea what else to say besides I'm sorry for ruining a friendship and I'm just sorry in general for everything
-Vanessa <3
Wow i wasn't expecting that at all but at least she told me everything? I can't be her friend though she ruined me. Even of it wasn't a relationship I was ruined I thought I knew what was going on with me but I didn't. She made me realise that I'm not into girls anymore. I mean thank you Vanessa for that because I do t think I would have been able to face Luke of I didn't realise that I liked boys.
The rest of class was awkward. I kept reading the note over and over again wondering if it was real or not.
I just let it go and ignored it after class. I would be seeing luke soon so I would tell him about the little encounter I had with Vanessa. He knows everything. I mean except for the fact I have feelings for him. He knows that I'm bi and he told me that he was bi. It gave me little hope to be honest.
A/n
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