THIS JS A BAD CHAPTER OKAY I JUST WANTED TO UPDATE A LITTLE SOMETHING BECAUSE ITS BEEN Q WHILE. MY WATTPAD WAS LOCKED FOR THE LONGEST TIME LIKE IT WOULDNT LET ME LOG ON IT WAS TERRIBLE OKAY WELL HERE IS THE UPDATE I HIPE YOU LIKE IT
Luke's P.O.V
I actually had a lot of fun writing with Ashton. I had my doubts about him to be honest. I thought he was some punk kid that wasn't any good. Maybe I should judge people anymore because I'm almost always wrong.
I think me and Ashton could actually be friends. I told my band mates about Ashton and they actually want me to ask him to join the band since he plays drums and were drummerless. But I don't know really. I mean yes Ashton is a good guy and all but I've never even heard him play. For all I know he could be shit at drums but he just likes to play them.
To be honest I shut off Ashton for the longest time after his friends caught him checking me out because I had this crush on him since year seven. I always ignored him after because I knew people would find out the way I felt about him. Yes I am gay. No one exactly knows that besides my family. I never felt the need to announce it to the school cause I know where that would lead to. People would judge and say those mean things. And after what Ashton's so called friends did to him after he checked me out I was not ready to tell anyone not even my band mates. Michael and Calum could never know the way I felt towards Ashton. They wouldn't understand. Michael is actually bi so he would understand a little bit but I don't know I just can never seen to get it out.
Maybe this project we had to do will bring me closer to Ashton and I'll finally be able to tell him the way I feel. I know the Ashton is bi. I know that because of the way he acts. I don't know actually how the way he acts makes him bi but the way he had changed from the past just makes me feel like he is. I don't know I could be wrong. Which I probably am but I don't know.
-The Next Week-
Today the song is due. I'm actually pretty nervous. I don't think anyone but our English teacher will see it which is a good thing. I don't want people to know about the song because it is about a bad relationship. And honestly no one besides by band mates and Ashton has seen something I wrote. But I guess it's what ever.
I have been talking to ashton a lot recently. He's actually a very funny person. I think my little crush on him is growing. It actually scares me liking him because I could become too attached and I'm not even sure of he likes me back or if he is even gay. But I'll take my chances anyway. I asked him if he wanted to join my band and he said yes! The only thing I'm not sure of is if he can actually play the drums. We have our first official band practice on Friday. Which I am very excited about. We are gonna make our first full band cover for YouTube.
---English Class---
We had turned in the song and our teacher said that he liked it and we got an A. He wanted to show the clad the song. I was okay with it now since we got a good grade and could tell ashton was excited because he squealed when our teacher asked him if he could show it to everyone. I guess you could say ashton was excited.
Our whole song was:
I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss, how it felt the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine
And you're somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you
When he says those words that hurt you do you read the ones I wrote you?
Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the makeup running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
'Cause I'm not fine at all
The pictures that you sent me they're still living in my phone
I admit I like to see them, I admit I feel alone
All my friends keep asking why I'm not around
It hurts to know you're happy and to face that you've moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long
It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the makeup running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away
And you'd never hear me say
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the makeup running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
I'm not fine at all
Everyone in the class was surprised by our lyrics. I swear I saw Ashton's friend (idk if they're still friends but okay) Vanessa's mouth drop as if she thought the song was about her. I mean I don't think it was I mean I wrote like half the song so I definitely didn't wrote a song about her. I mean I really don't like her. She is probably the most obnoxious person I know. I don't know how someone like ashton could ever be friends with her.
A/N
Okay that was today's update! I have no idea when I'll have a time to update in the next couple of weeks because I'll be helping my family move. I typed this in school so maybe sometime next week when I'm at school I type up something for you all.
Comment & vote if you like this little update
OH AND THANK YOU FOR 1K READS I NEVER THOUGHT IT WOULD GET THAT MANY BECAUSE THIS IS PROBABLY ONE OF THE WORST LASHTON FANFICS OUT THERE
Okay well bye I love you all
-courtney :D
