Numb But Moving

Chapter 8: Suicidal

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EPOV

            My heart soared. Even if Bella wasn’t in love with me, the Volturi were no longer after her. She would still be alive for me to try and rekindle any possible feelings she might have for me.

Another bonus was that Demetri was forced into going back to Italy, so there was no chance for him to court her. That thought made me slightly smug.

We didn’t know how to find Bella, but the guard did have the useful suggestion of heading south and keeping our ears open for fighting. That’s the only way they had ever come across her. It wasn’t much, but it was something.

As per their instructions, my family and I headed south. We knew it would be a long and difficult job finding Bella, but we loved her enough.

Thinking back over what she had told us and what the Volturi had confirmed, it shocked both me and my family greatly. No one, however, was as stunned as Jasper. He had lived in the south, commanding a newborn army before finding Alice and then us. He knew how difficult it must have been to destroy one, let alone multiple armies. But after what we had witnessed of Bella’s fight with the Volturi guard, he deemed it plausible.

APOV

            Bella, Bella, oh Bella! I was so excited that we had seen Bella. I knew she had been through a lot, just the story she had told us was amazing, and she didn’t even include what had happened to her before she was changed or who had changed her.

            She wasn’t with us now, but I had a feeling that we would find her soon. I couldn’t see it of course, but that didn’t mean I couldn’t trust my spidey senses.

            Edward was happier than I had seen him since we had left Forks, even if there was the chance that she didn’t love him anymore. But from what Jasper had said about her being in pain, I think she still does.

            When we reach the south, we decided that I would look into the future for any possible fighting between vampires. Even though I can’t see her, if there was fighting activity she might go there to destroy the armies. It made sense and it was our best chance.

BPOV

            I watched as my body raced through the forests. From the direction I was going, I had an idea as to what would happen I just wasn’t sure what the point was. The most important question on my mind though, was exactly what was controlling my body? I knew I could move forward in my mind again to take control, but for now my theory was the thing I called ‘the monster’ was what was controlling my body.

            It made sense to me. It was a part of me that I rarely let come forward, except during my hunts, and now that I had retreated into the back of my mind, relinquishing control, ‘the monster’ had eagerly stepped forward.

            The only surprising thing was that whatever was controlling my body had no trouble ignoring the presence of humans, no matter how thirsty it made me. It was almost as if my body was on a mission, and I guess it could have been called that. I was headed south.

            My surroundings shimmered slightly as I realized I was having another vision. Obviously this was one power you couldn’t just turn off. The armies in the south would be merging together to fight me. I hadn’t attacked in almost a year and it must be making them edgy.

            I grinned involuntarily as I realized what the armies were planning on doing and what my body’s goal was. I had no objection. I was headed to the most likely thing to end my suffering: a massive army of vampires looking for nothing more than my death. I just needed to make it easier to find me.