Numb But Moving

Chapter 20: Forever...Really?

Sorry for the long wait. Real life got away from me and made it real hard to update. I actually had this chapter written for a while but i still had edits to do. I promise not to have that long of a wait between updates again since life has settled into some sort of normalcy.

Obviously this chapter has a sex scene in the midde of it. If you want to read it then you can go look at the book Rated R chapters. It will have this entire chapter including the fade to black sex scene.

I borrowed some words from the great Stephanie Meyer towards the end of the chapter. You all know i own nothing but the plot. Hope you guys like.

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BPOV

“Take me home”

I couldn’t believe those words had come from me. We were supposed to be taking it slow and here I was pushing boundaries. As soon as those words left my mouth he tensed.

“Hey just forget it. I didn’t mean to make you uncomfortable.”

“You didn’t make me uncomfortable Bella, it’s just aren’t we supposed to be taking it slow?”

“Yeah” I mumbled. “I don’t know if that’s what I want any more Edward.”

“Why do you say that?”

“Because we’re not the same people we were. We can’t just go back to the way things were. Alice was right; we have to build something new. And right now this feels right to me, but it’s only if you can handle it.”

I watched as several different emotions flitted across his face. When he finally settled on resigned.

“Are you sure this is what you want Bella?”

“Yes. Do you think you can handle more than just heavy kissing?”

I felt Edward lean in as his warm breath tickled my ear.

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Bella, you don't know how much I have thought about doing more than heavy kissing.”

I stopped breathing as his scent surrounded me. And warmth spread through me like a wild fire.

He slowly pulled his hands away from the wall and moved them so that he could grip my waist and pull me closer. I pushed my body closer to his instinctually, and had to bite my lip to suppress the moan that wanted to get free.

He leaned in deeper, and I could feel his lips on my ear. "You don't know how much I want to just throw you down and have my way with you."

There was no way for me to stop the moan before it happened; his words just did things to me.

I couldn’t completely comprehend that, because suddenly his lips were on mine; his tongue licking along my bottom lip silently asking me for permission. I gladly opened my mouth and felt his tongue thrust in. My own matched his and gloriously that was not the only thing I was feeling. His hands trailed down my back before grasping my butt and pulling me tightly into him. He moaned in my mouth before his hand made their way up my back touching each pearl of my spine.

When he thrust his hands into my hair, I broke away for air. His hand curled around my locks and pulled it gently forcing my head to arch away from him. He dipped his head and I moaned as he licked and kissed my neck making his way up my jaw to my ear.

"I want you Bella more than you'll ever know. Feel how I want you," he growled as he palmed my ass and pushed my hips towards his. I gasped when I felt his obvious erection. He had never allowed me this close, and a big part of me rejoiced in the fact that he wasn’t pulling away.