Heartache (immortalfox)

The Start Of Something.

I was sitting on the couch with everybody, I glanced down at my hand and I felt my stomach grow tight. This was the perfect moment to tell everyone my secret. I wanted to, but I didn't want to get rejected by some of them because I know being gay isn't something you want to hear. Especially from one of your best friends.

"Aleks?" Eddie said grabbing my thigh. "Aleks?" He repeated.

"Hmm.." I mumbled looking at him.

"Wanna play Mario kart?" He said holding up a controller.

"No.. I'm okay." I mumbled.

"What's wrong?"

"Oh.. um, it's nothing."

"Aleks, it's something."

I stared into his eyes, dazed and confused. I want to tell him, but I don't want him to yell at me or even smack me.

"Aleks."

"What?"

"Come with me." Eddie said with a concerned look on his face.

"Ok?" I say standing from the couch.

I followed behind him down the hall to his room, he opened the door, turned on the light, than shut the door behind us.

"What's wrong?"

"It's nothing, honestly."

"Aleks. Tell me."

"You're going to hate me.. I can't hold this is anymore I'm sorry I never told you before but.. I'm gay."

"Oh, I.. You.. What?!"

"Okay?"

"You're gay!" He said pulling at his hair. "Does anyone else know?"

"No, just you. I wanted to tell them but I can't."

"Whys that I wonder."

I shrug.

"That's because you'll get called a faggot, you idiot! God why did you do this to me."

"What do you mean?"

"You're gay, we sleep in the same bed, we share stuff, we cuddle once in a while, I thought it was all common grounds but now it's not."

"Eddie stop."

"Aleks shut up."

"Stop."

"Shut up you queer."

With that I turned, opened the door slammed it behind me and ran outside. I can't handle this I'm done, I can't be here with those circumstances.

I wonder where I'm going to go? I'll just run until I can't run anymore.

~

I reached the pier, I stood there glancing down at the water. The possibilities of what I could do right now are horrendous.

I could jump and drown, I could swim away and get eaten by something. I could go back and lay on the road until someone runs me over. I could play chicken with the cars.

I need something, just someway to take my mind off what just happened. I can't believe what he said after him being my friend for all these years. It crashed down like a plane, I have feelings for him but now they will never work out.

I hoisted myself up onto the top piece of wood. I closed my eyes, took a deep breathe.

"Aleks! Stop." I turn my body to see Eddie.

"Aleks don't do it."

"Why not?"

"Because, suicides not the answer."

"In my case. It is." I said before falling backwards in the ocean. I let myself descend deeper and deeper into the water. My body gasping for air, I felt my stomach tighten.

All I could see was black.

~

"Aleks? Aleks wake up." I hear a voice saying.

I was weak, my body was paralyzed. I thought maybe I did it, maybe this was the other side.

I fluttered my eyes opened and a familiar face was in front of me.

"Aleks. Oh thank god you're okay."

"Why do you care Eddie."

"I'm sorry I said those things I never meant them."

"Sure you didn't. Why didn't you just let me die."

"Because you have no reason too."

"Yes I do, look at what you said to me. It's going to be the same with everyone else."

"No it won't."

"Yes it will.. They won't accept me for me. Eddie I can't.."

Was the last words I said before he slammed his lips into mine. I felt healed by the touch, like it was meant to happen at that very moment.

"Let me take us home." He said smiling.

I nodded, I stood up and shook the dirt off my clothes. I walked up the shoreline to his car.

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