Heartache (immortalfox)

Distracted.

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He starts the car, and drives back to the house. I get out of his car, and rush inside. I don't talk to anyone the whole way to my room. I just slam my body down on the bed and try to sleep. I just felt like bawling, all I could fell was this pain in my chest. It hurts.

Like someone ripped out my heart and replaced it with lava. It was burning inside me, I can't handle this.

I'm just going to put my music on, and maybe I'll drift to sleep.

Slowly.

Very slowly.

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"Aleks wake up."

"No.. go away.." I mumble.

"Wake up! or I'll dump water on you." I hear James laughing,

"No.."

I feel the cold water hit my bare back, I shot up quickly.

"You ass!"

James turns into a laughing mess, he can't stop laughing. I get up off the bed, and tear the blankets off my bed.

I can't believe he just did that.

"Why'd you do that?"

"You wouldn't get up,"

"So?"

"I wanted you to get up,"

"Shut up,"

"Come downstairs,"

"Why?" I ask him.

"I made pancakes,"

"So?"

"Thought you'd want some,"

"I'll be down in a bit, okay?"

"Okay," he shrugs before walking out of my room.

I put my blankets in the hamper, and grab new sheets from the closet. I make my bed, than I get dressed.

All I can think about is Eddie.

I'm so frustrated with him.

I want him, he saved me from killing myself and he kissed me. But yet, he doesn't want a relationship.

I wish he would just grow some balls and figure his shit out. Like why, is he scared to be committed to someone? Is he scared to date a guy? What is it?

I walked down the steps, and I get to the kitchen. The smell of pancakes fills my senses. I sit down at the table and James brings a plate to me. He slides the maple syrup to me, I drown them completely.

I see Eddie walk into the kitchen, he looks terrible this morning. His hairs all over the place, his eyes bloodshot, his cheeks were red.

Was he crying?

He sits down beside James, they begin to small talk.

"Are we doing a live feed later?"

"I think so," Eddie shrugs "I don't know, ask kootra."

"They said something about doing one," I mumble.

"Oh okay," James replies "sweet,"

"We could do a new game, or an old one."

"It's up to you," I say,

"Yeah, okay." Eddie says before standing up and placing his plate in the sink.

He leaves the kitchen, I hear him thump up the steps. I hear his door slam shut.

"Well that was pleasant," James mumbles

"Indeed," I say before standing up. I walk over to the sink and set my plate down. I walk out into the living room and stretch out. I look around, what to do today? I thought to myself.

I think I'm going to talk to Eddie again, he's not himself. Actually, I'll just leave him be, maybe he'll come to me.

I walk over to the couch and sit down, I turn it on and find something interesting to watch. The Big Bang Theory was on, thank god. I love that show.

I found my mind wandering, I couldn't focus on the tv.

It's was all about him.

Eddie.

Oh how you wrecked my thoughts, I'm so distracted by him. The way he kissed me, it was so soft and it felt right.

I think he's the one for me, the one I want to be with.

I am falling so deeply in love with my best friend it's crazy.

What can I do.

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