Shawn Mendes Imagines

i'm here

They warned the whole state a week in advance. They predicted it to be the worst ice storm in years. They advised everyone not to travel unless it was completely necessary. It was a desert town the whole 3 days the ice storm was happening. My baby sister just had to run out of diapers.

It was the Monday after the storm. Roads were terrible. 5 car wrecks had already happened on the main highway. I told my mom to stay home and wait another day. She told me that it couldn't wait. My mom also hates driving by herself so I went with her.

We slid. A lot. Mom told me to not be scared and that we'll get home safe and sound, she promised.

"Mom, just pull over now, there's no way you can drive through this anymore."
"Honey, its fine. We'll get there. Calm down." She said smiling at me.

And in that moment, we hit a patch of ice that even if she was looking at the road, she wouldn't have missed it. The car flipped over.

"Y/n, are you okay?" My mom asked.
"I'm upside down, I can feel a piece of the windshield in my body, I'm pretty sure my arm is broken. Are you okay?" I winched in pain.
I didn't get a response.
"Mom?"
No answer.
"No, mom, no." I cried.

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"Babe!" My boyfriend yelled in excitement as he saw me.
"Hi, Shawn." I said emotionless.
"How are you doing?" He asked.
"My moms dead." I said without even looking at him.
"I know. I'm really sorry babe."
"I told her not to go out in the storm. I told her. And she promised me we would get home safe."
Shawn looked at me with sad eyes, not knowing how to respond.
"This is a dream, any minute I'll wake up and my mom will be nagging me to clean my room." I assured myself.
"Baby.." Shawn started.
"No- this is some sick joke right? Someone's gonna jump out and says 'you've been punked!' Right? This isn't real." Tears started to spill.
"It's going to be okay." Shawn tried to reassure me.
"No! No it's not. This can't be real. This feeling inside me, I'm empty. I feel like I'm being pulled into a black hole. I can't live with this feeling for the rest of my life."
"I know this is hard. my best friend committed suicide last year. I was on tour, on stage, when he did it. He called me. 10 times. And the last call that I made it off stage in time for, was his mother telling me the news. I felt empty too. I could have stopped him. If I wasn't on stage, I would have answered my phone and I could have gave him words to stop him. You're not sinking into a black hole, y/n, I promise. You'll never get over this. You'll think of her everyday. Everything you do, will remind you of her. But you will move on and you will learn to deal with this. I promise. And I'm here for you. I swear I am not leaving anytime soon. I'm here and I'm going to help you get through this. I love you so much and I'm glad you are going to be okay physically and I'll help you be okay mentally. Okay?" He held me in his arms as he spoke with passion and meaning.
"I love you. Thank you." I held him tightly and cried in his arms.

I'll miss my mom everyday. I'll remember this day forever. I'll remember telling her not to go. I'll remember her telling me she promised we would make it home okay. I'll remember the last face I saw of her was of her smiling at me. I'll remember her as who she was. She was my mom. And nothing will ever take that away.

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Not totally focused on Shawn but hope you still enjoyed. The state of Missouri is actually having a huge ice storm as I write this and inspiration struck so I decided to write this.