Shawn Mendes Imagines

cancer

Shawns POV

I knew something was bothering her. She was distant and quiet. She wasn't being herself. She wasn't being the funny and bubbly girl I fell in love with. I thought maybe it was just a bad day at school or maybe a fight with her mom. When she got in these moods, she didn't like being talked to. She liked being alone. She needed time to clear her head or she would lash out. So I gave her space. But this was going on for more than 2 weeks and I can't take it anymore. Something is wrong and it's not school or her mom.

"Y/n." I spoke softly.

She was standing by the window. Looking out at my sister and her friends playing. Her face had sadness and worry all over it. She was thinking about a lot, I could tell.

"I miss it." She finally spoke.

"Miss what, hun?" I asked concerned.

"Being young, carefree, where the only pain you had was a scraped knee and mommy would patch it up with a kiss and a bandaid. Being able to laugh that loud without a care in the world."

"Babe, is this about you turning 18 tomorrow? You can still have those kid moments. Just because you're becoming an adult doesn't mean you have to act like one. You can still be carefree. You can still laugh. Being an adult doesn't mean your life is over."

"But having cancer does." She mumbled.

"What?" I asked shocked.

"But having can-"

"No. I heard you."

I was in shock. Cancer. As in, death cancer.

"I'm sorry. I didn't tell you. I didn't know how." She said.

"Cancer? You're sure you have cancer?"

"Yes, Shawn. I'm 100% sure."

"What kind?"

"Lung. It's terminal."

"No." I muttered.

"I'm going to make this easier on you so when I die it doesn't affect you as much."

"You aren't breaking up with me. No. I'm your boyfriend and I'm going to stand by you. I don't care that you're going to die. I will stand by your hospital bed holding your hand. You aren't getting rid of me." I stood up, yelling. I can't believe she was trying to leave me.

"But Shawn-"

"No. Whether you leave me now by breaking up with me or you leave 6 months now from this awful disease, it will hurt the same. I'm not losing you yet, okay? I love you so much."

"I love you too." She hugged me and she cried. I let a few tears slip too.