Dear diary,

LAST TIME

Dear diary,
He asked...he asked about last time.
Should I tell him?

If I do, what if he is just a jerk, like all the others? What if he tells everyone? What if I really can't trust one of my closest friends?
What if I really can't trust my best friend?

Last time,
I got crushed. I guess that was clear, but it wasn't completely clear exactly how.
I met a boy.
He was kind, sweet and handsome.
Or at least I thought so at the time.
I fell for him.
But he didn't catch me.
He fell for my best friend. My best friend.
I didn't blame him, she was cute, she was beautiful.
I was lucky she didn't like him,
She liked someone else.
But it was still pretty bad,
She fell for his best friend.
I can't believe that our friendships didn't just fall apart.
They stayed strong.
And so did my love.
No matter how many times someone told me that he was actually a jerk, and that he didn't deserve me...
I didn't stop.
Finally, it was almost the end of the year, and we went on residential.
We went with another school too,
They only had three students. A boy and two girls.
Both girls fell for him too.
Only one of us would get him.
One of the girls tried to take me out do the game. She tripped me up, probably hoped that would get me out of the way for a while and give her a chance to get close to him, but he caught me.
He told me that he really did love me and so I had a great residential for about 3 days, but then I found out.
He was pretending.
He liked another girl, at this point he had already gotten over my best friend, he'd moved on.
I hadn't.
The girl he fell for,
Wasn't the girl who tripped me up, it was the other girl from that school.
They fell for each other and there was nothing I could do.
They didn't care that my heart was broken and that I cried myself to sleep.
They only cared about how they felt.
They crushed me, and it took me a while to even build up courage to trust boys again.
But I did.
I trust Tom
I think I should tell him.
Should I tell him?
Lucy