Free Flow.

Free Flow January 16th.

I never expected a lot of things that have happened to me. Some of the best things in my life have caught me by surprise, from making the first friends I made freshman year of high school, whom I still talk to even though I live 600 miles away from the select few who I treasure as best friends. Love, who was sitting at a table by herself with this cute pink bow tied in her hair, I sat down & said "I'm Gary, I'll sit with you I hate sitting alone, I love your bow too."
Quecyon, my first ever manager who turned out to be one of my best friends who I still miss dearly. She told me when I got my interview for my first job, at Burger King! "I like you, because you're a breath of fresh air."
There are so many things in my life that have come so far out of left field it's kind of ridiculous. However I have learned slowly as I matured that those unexpected things really can turn out to be some of the best things to happen to you..
Last night was a prime example, it all started when I woke up.
Everyone checks their phone when they wake up, right? Like we check our texts, emails, social media & most importantly we check the time to make sure we didn't sleep too far into the day, am I right? Anyways.
So I wake up, look over & grab my phone, I have two texts.
I open them & I immediately knew who it was. It was my ex, now before you throw stones mentally make sure you don't live in a glass house. So essentially what he said was that he misses me, that spending the time away from me, which he took responsibility for that & said it was his fault, which I respect because anybody can be a guy but it takes a man to be a man & admit when they are wrong. He found himself thinking of me, he apologized for the way things ended, he just wanted to talk.
Fast forward a few hours later & I get home from running some errands & he's there. I smoked a cigarette outside with my mom because I lit one right when I turned onto my street so I wouldn't have to go right inside.
A few minutes go by & I hear the door open & I see him just look at me with his grin & then he looked down & him, my mom & I just all got the giggles. My mom went inside after giving us a group hug & telling us that she loves "us" as mom's do. I love that woman so much. I'm so lucky.
Mom's inside now, just me & him talking about you know "it" the elephant in the room. His words were jumbled by nerves & choppy but when some people speak, you can feel the emotion in their words. I could feel it. He is genuinely sorry for ending things the way they did, he wants to make it right, he wants to try.
It wasn't abuse, we just broke up through text & it was a mess girl.
I can tell that he wants to be with me. He got me out of the house, to 3 different bars, the first one was the bar he works at, then we went to Black Flower & then another bar. The ride there, it was just like we picked right back up where we left off, conversation was flowing, I was smiling & laughing. Like you know how when you do something & you can't explain it but it just feels so right? I had that feeling all night last night, even before alcohol was in the mix. I still felt awesome. His presence again had just boosted me, I kept just laughing throughout the night for "no reason" but girl it was because life is fucking funny sometimes. I was happy, I bitch & moan about not being happy, then here comes him, making me laugh, smile & just enjoy things for what they are. How criminal!
His memory is still so good, he remembers things I told him when we first met, he knows my birthday, he knows everytime I go out I have to drink a Rolling Rock because my Dad loved Rolling Rock so much that when he was cremated his ashes were split up by Rolling Rock bottles.
We got to the second bar & he asked me if I wanted anything to drink & pointed to the Rolling Rock & asked if I wanted one, things like that, how can it not get you?
We went to get food after the bar[s] & we used to go Sheetz all the time together, I love food, so much. Sheetz has variety & they are 24/7 so automatically they win, you feel me? So we get our food & then we go sit in the car & we drove to a place to park & eat at almost 2 o'clock in the morning. We just relaxed, talked about life because I was rambling & I kept apologizing for talking so much because I hate feeling like I'm talking to much or annoying people. He kept saying it was fine, that he missed my voice. Everything this guy does makes me smile. I missed him.
The night was so chill, it was fantastic, we had so much fun. We talked about so much.
It feels good to be happy. Especially when it just happens.

It's a crazy thing called life, ain't it now?

**Addition, sorry for being gone for 2 weeks, I hit a block y'all**