Free Flow.

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Free Flow, February 12th
Well, where do I start? It's been a while, I have just had a lot on my plate.. well, it's a cycle at this point.
However, I do want to apologize to anyone who was actually reading & enjoying my writting. I'm sorry, I'm terrible!
Uh, I suppose me loosing my lisence in 2 or 3 days is a fun place to start, right? It's from a whooping court fee that I just could not pay, like it was not happening. Well the good old DMV was good 'nuff to mail me a lovely letter, explaining that I would be loosing it due to the lack of a payment for the court cost! While I have nobody to blame but myself, it really sucks & it's making a drive that takes not even 4 minutes, a very nervous 4 minutes. I don't leave to drive anywhere, unless it's to go to work, grab smokes or get gas. Everyone I know is still busy, still succeding & pushing themselves to do so much better & I just sleep on myself like a self-loathing god-damn potato, I know I can do so much better than what I'm doing right this very second. I guess it all just boils down to the fact that I just don't believe in myself like I used to as a kid, if we're going to get deep.. I thought I would be this kick-ass adult who would be so happy, thriving, doing his best.. here I am, the total opposite like what the actual fuck?! I don't even want to get started on work because that's a totally different story. I'm about to have to ride my bike everywhere, hoping it never gets stolen, it's gonna make everything such a drag. It's a cycle I swear to god I can never just hit my stride for a CONSISTENT amount of time!
There's always setbacks, either by life or just by my own doing. Ironically enough that is always consistent because fuck me, right?! I need to stop this is getting so personal, so quickly.