One shots for peterick

I'm not sorry I loved you

Pete sighed in his sleep. I looked at him his back was turned to me . Memories from Just a few hours prior flashed through my mind .
" how could you!" I yelled at pete while he looked emotionless at his blood covered pants with his hands on his slightly pudgy stomach and a bruise painting his cheek
" all I did was go on a walk they jumped me and beat me I didn't mean to lose our baby I did my best to protect it " he pulled my varsity jacket tighter around him.
" you stupid stupid boy it's bad enough you got knocked up our senior year but now your dumbass couldn't even keep they baby safe ? It should have been you!" The words left my mouth without me meaning to say them and the heart wrenching look in his eyes made me regret every syllable and his next words hit like knives.
" I know you're just hurting right now " he bit his lip wiping his tears " but I want you to leave me alone for a while "
Why couldn't he have yelled at me slapped me or something. He just sat there like a hurt puppy I went to hug him but he moved away getting changed into pajamas and laying down facing away from me letting out quiet sobs so that he wouldn't bother me . I know he's blaming himself so much as it is he doesn't need my help in that . I laid down sighing and heard his sobs fade to hiccups then soft snores you could tell he had a runny nose. I pulled his blanket up around him and sighed.
His hand wrapped around mine even though he was asleep " I'll give you time but no matter what I'm not going to be sorry for loving you I didn't mean to get knocked up I thought you knew I was transgender but that's okay I'm sorry I lost our baby but I'm still not sorry for loving you" he mumbled before falling back to sleep. I know it's going to take some time but I know we're going to be alright.