I wake up and I am still in Paul's arms. He is awake and staring down into my eyes. Today is my mom's visitation.
"Let's shower together." Paul whispers. "I'll wash you're hair for you."
I nod and we go to his bathroom. We both get in the shower together and he does what he said he would do, wash my hair. He holds my naked body against his as I begin to cry again.
We both get dressed in dark colors. He compliments me before we meet Anne downstairs. She smiles and hugs me. I hug her back before we head towards her car. We are all riding up to the funeral home together.
I sit between Paul and Kim, Jared is on the other side of Kim. He came? I look around and see the entire pack that i met my second day in La Push. This is only the visitation. I wonder if they will be at her funeral and burial tomorrow. I hope so, I could use all the support I can get with this death.
Father Sanders steps behind mama's open casket and looks down at her before he decides to open in prayer for the family. Kim holds my hand while Paul holds his mom's. We close our eyes and we all pray.
I have given father Sanders all the information needed on my mother. She was a doctor for twenty years. She started a few years before I was born. I sure am going to miss the woman. Terribly bad.
I move over beside Sam, my new guardian. I will be 18 in three months, then I'll be able to get out on my own. Sam pats my knee before wrapping a parental arm around me as he listens to father Sanders.
The visitation soon comes to an end and Emily is hosting a wake at her house. So, I ride with Paul and Anne to Sam and Emily's house. Emily is cooking while Sam shows me to my room.
"I like it Sam, thank you." I smile then I hug him.
He hugs me back and whispers, "it's no problem."
We join the wake again. Emily hands me a plate of comfort food; spaghetti and garlic bread. I thank her and I sit beside Paul at the kitchen table. He places his hand on my leg as I eat.
"Tomorrow is the funeral." I whisper. "Tomorrow will be my official last day of seeing her face."
Paul wraps an arm around me and he kisses my head. I snuggle up against him when I finish eating. He walks me out to Anne's car. She drives us to their house and goes back to help clean up.
I do upstairs and I run some bath water. I strip my clothes off and Paul walks in. I sit in the hot water and he just sits on the toilet, keeping me company. I tell him about how my mom raised me good.
I get dressed into some pajamas after my bath. We walk to his room and climb into his bed. I cuddle up against him. I close my eyes as I listen to his heartbeat. I soon drift off to sleep.
