Life With Sin

Dearly Departed

I had to get it together, these babies needed me, Zack would want me to hold it down that's what I'm gonna do. Kristin helped me get everything arranged while I contacted his family and other friends from back home. I couldn't believe I even had to do this. I went to visit Pee Wee and let him know the details, he broke down in tears when I told him. "Z was ready for us to take off!" He whimpered. He told me he wasn't gonna let his name die like that even if he didn't rap no more he'd run Zoe Hustle. I was glad to hear that.

The day had come to lay my love to rest, the kids and I were dressed and waiting on the car service. I had booked Zacks parents and family rooms at the Hilton and we left from there. I had all the nannies on deck and tucked away in a room on the other side of the church so the kids wouldn't be disturbed. They were too young to understand and would be too much for me to handle. To see his mom break down brought chills through me, I couldn't imagine even being a mother who loss her seed. Now what would life be like.

The service came and went, my heart was ripped out of my body. I'm so hurt, I was being a bitch to him but truthfully I loved Z. I stayed out of the medias view for awhile but I needed to get back to it. I was having a hard time adjusting, everything seemed grey to me nothing made me happy but I smiled like it was all good.

My phone started ringing from an unusual number. "Heyyyyy bitch!" The voice screamed through the phone. Oh my effing gosh! How the hell did Sin get my number?! "What's up Sin?" I asked annoyed. "Girl don't sound too amused! I was just calling to let you know I'll be home soon! I heard about you and Z! Congrats! Too bad we ain't get to make nun!" She laughed! "Oh and sorry about your loss!" She spat. "Thanks! But what do I deserved the pleasure of this call? What you want?" I rolled my eyes. "Well miss girl since you asked I need a favor. The board won't sign my release papers until I have a legit address not in Atlanta. So I was thinking..." before she could finish "HELL FUCK NO! Bitch have you lost your mind?" I yelled. I just know this bitch didn't attempt to fix her mouth to ask to come stay with me! "Damn bitch! It's only temporary til I get right! You still owe me hoe!" She shouted. I never knew my life would be this way and I don't want no more of my past coming back since Z is gone. "Sin I'll see what I can do but living with me is out of the question." I replied and hung up.