Masked Feelings

Chapter 61: Want And Need

"Where's Damian?" Rose asked as she approached me. I gave her the towel while shrugging. Dean and Isaac were still swimming.

"He said he was going for a walk" I told her as I turned my head slightly in the direction that he headed to see if I could still see him. But no. No Damian in my eyesight. "I'm going to look for him" I told her as I stood up. Damian was quite grumpy and i was sure that it was because of Isaac. Rose nodded then laid on her towel. I walked in the direction that he took and tried to look for a sexy ass man.

To say that Damian was fucking up my mind would be an understatement. I kept on walking, slowly relaxing myself to the sound of the waves crashing against the sand. There were not much people today at the beach and i was thankful for that. I hated crowds. I walked a little bit more then walked on a secluded area. There was no one here. I stretched my arms and let the sun invade my pores. It was so relaxing. When I opened my eyes, I saw someone swimming in the sea. I squint my eyes and fixed at the person, then realized that it was Damian who was swimming. He then stilled. His back was facing me.

"Here I come" I mumbled to myself. I grinned and made my way to the water. I slowly stepped in. The water was cool. I wondered how Damian would act with me. I seemed to annoy him a lot lately. I slowly moved deeper in the water. Goosebumps rose on my skin when the cold water touched my hot skin. When I was now neck deep in the water. I didn't know how to swim so I simply walked till i was on my toes. The water was really relaxing. Damian heard me approaching, he turned to look at me. Then turned again to look at the horizon. I moved closer to him so that I was now standing beside him.

"What are you doing here?" Damian asked. I tried to stand on the sand without the waves moving me.

"I was looking for you" I said.

"Now that you've found me, you can go" He said, rather rudely. I clenched my jaws and turned towards him.

"What the fuck is wrong with you?" I snapped as I glared at him. He turned to face me as well. He seemed emotionless. He simply shrugged.

"I don't want you around me" Damian said, without any emotions. I took a deep breath. I knew that I was not important for him but I didn't know that it was to the point where he wouldn't mind hurting me. I blinked several times before realizing what he just said. I stared at him one last time before taking a step back. Just as I was about to swim back to the shore, I felt him grab my arm and pulled me to him.

"What do you want?" I asked, my tone as cold as ice. I struggled against his grip but he only turned me around so that I was now crushed against his chest.

"I fucking want you. That's what I want" He said through gritted teeth. "But you seem to like the little boy over there"  He said, most probably talking about Isaac.

"What are you talking about?" I asked. He was jealous and i knew it. But he was too stubborn to actually admit it.

"That Isaac guy, he was flirting with you. And you flirted back" He said. He was twenty eight years old and his behavior was still like a teen. I took a deep breath and rolled my eyes.

"So what? I'm not in a relationship. And as long as I know, our deal is over. All we do is fuck. I'm simply a good fuck, right Damian?" I asked before laughing and pulled my hand away from him. His hair falling over his face made me want to push it away and pull him to me. I wanted to kiss his rosy lips.

"Stay here" He ordered as he pulled me to him again. I turned and glared at him. He put his hands on my waist so that I wouldn't move.

"What do you want, Damian?" I asked, now sounding tired. His eyes softened, then he closed them. After a few seconds, he opened them again. He looked so vulnerable. How can his eyes do that?

"I want you. It's not even about wanting anymore. I need you" He said, making my heart race in my ribcage. "I can't stand a guy flirting with you, or you flirting with another guy" He said, glaring as he said the last five words.

"I wasn't flirting with him" I interjected. He rolled his eyes before pulling me even closer. I wrapped my legs around his hips, letting our forehead touch.

"I want you all mine, Athena" He whispered.

"Then what are you afraid of?" I asked, my voice near to a whisper as well. I knew what he was afraid of. He was afraid to be deceived again. He was afraid to love and not to be loved. I wrapped my arms around him and slowly pecked his cheek. I don't even know when he turned his face and my lips met his. I sighed in relief. It was something I was wanting desperately. I let my fingers trailed in his hair, tugging on them slightly, obtaining a groan from him. He bit my lips,then slide his tongue in my mouth, making me moan. The kiss turned into something more passionate. He tightened his grip on my waist and i was sure that it was going to make a mark. I could feel his bones against me. I pulled away when I was about of breath. I leant my forehead against his. My eyes were closed. I liked the feeling of being close to him. I loved that guy in front of me.

"I love you" I whispered.