Still Queer As Folk

Episode 12

"Hey, where's Justin?" Michael came up to me as I headed out to the floor from my office. I look over to see him and Emmett having a blast dancing. It has been almost a month since he woke up from his coma. He was doing a lot better. He freezes a little when someone surprises him, but he recovers quickly on his own. I was so proud of him.

"He is dancing with Emmett. I had some paper work to go over." I sat at the bar and Bill put my usual in front of me. I pick it up and take it in one mouth full, keeping an eye on Justin the whole time.

"How is he doing?" Michael sat next to me and watched Justin and Emmett also.

"He is doing great, he only panicked once this past week. The people in his department at work love him. The only problem now is the nightmares. He still wakes up almost every night. Tears running down his face, shaking, I don't know how to help with that." It was killing me, I want to fix it.

"Everything going good between you too." I narrowed my eyes at him, when is he going to back off Justin.

"Justin and I are fine. What is your issue with him all of a sudden." I was tired of his attitude.

"Christ Brian, my issue isn't with Justin. It is with the two of you in general. I know you love each other but let's be honest. The two of you have had a seriously fucked relationship that always ends in you hurting each other." He had a point, but that was before. Justin was always emotionally open with me and me being closed off with him always caused our issues.

"I get that, really I do. That is not gonna happen now. I was the problem then and everyone told me that. Hello, I knew it, I just couldn't let go. Justin was always honest with me, I just couldn't be completely honest with him." Michael nodded his head in agreement.

"I am happy for you, you know. I am concerned about the lack of safety you have been taking, but I get it. If Ben and I could be together in that way, we would be." I understood that. You had to use a condom while tricking because you don't know the person.

"Hey sexy, wanna come dance with me." I look over to see a fairly hot young guy. Brown messy hair, light eyes, no shirt. Any other time I would drag him to the back room, it is weird how I don't even have that compulsion anymore. He was really good looking, but no where near Justin. I just was not interested.

"Nope, I'm good." I looked over towards Justin and raised my glass when he looked at me. He nodded and put two fingers up. I signaled Bill. "Two double Jim Beam." He nodded and grabbed two glasses filling them and putting them in front of me.

"Thanks hot stuff." The guy went to grab a glass and I moved it out of his reach.

"Not yours." Justin and Emmett danced over to us. I smiled at Justin. He leaned on the bar next to me to catch his breath. "Have fun?"

"Yeah, wanna dance with me now." Did he have to ask. I have always looked at dancing as a way to fuck a guy. With Justin I enjoyed it, running my hands over his body. Feeling his move against me, I actual love dancing with him. I fell in love dancing with him.

"Hey, buddy. I was here first, so fuck off." The guy was still here, this should be fun. Justin raise a brow at me and I shrugged.

"And who are you?" Justin asked in an almost bored tone. I love how relaxed he is becoming again.

"Hopefully his tonight. Who the hell are you?" Justin smiled at me and touched my ring, my hand hanging at my side. I smiled at him.

Justin picked up his drink and Downed it quick. After he put the glass down he grabbed my left hand and showed my ring to the annoying guy. I mean he was dripping desperate. "Well, I am his." The guys mouth dropped as Justin pulled me to the dance floor.

"That was fucking hot." I say laughing as I pull Justin against me and we start moving. He grinds his hips against mine and let's go to the base.

"What was with him, anyway?" I shrug and put my arms on his shoulders.

"He asked me to dance. I said no. Strangely enough I don't really feel compelled to pick anyone up. It is fun to play around with you every now and then but, I don't know. I like it just being us. I know what to expect, and there is no one that has ever given me better then you. It almost seems pointless." He laughed and kissed me.

I grip his hair and pull him deeper into the kiss. Still moving to the music. "Get a room." Emmett and Michael are dancing next to us. I look at Justin and he laughs. We form a loose circle and the four of us dance.

Everything is great until a man comes up behind Justin and grabs him at the waist whispering in his ear. He freezes up and closes his eyes. I react instantly and pull Justin away from the man and into my arms. "Keep your hands off of him." Michael and Emmett stand to each side of me and Michael pulls Justin over to him, slightly behind me. Strangely he has become almost as protective of Justin as I am since he woke up.

"Come on, I only want to have a little fun, he looks like fun. Since when does the infamous Brian Kinney not share." I narrow my eyes at him. No fucking chance in hell.

I look at Justin, "What do you think Sunshine?" He could see the heat in my eyes. I was humoring the man.

"No fucking way in hell." I smirk and look at the man, raising my eyebrow.

"You heard him, my husband is not interested." I pull Justin back into my arms and kiss him. "What did that ass hole say to you?"

"He wanted to sink into my tight ass." Justin shuddered and I hug him tight. We continue to dance but Justin never really relaxes again.

"Hey, let's go home." I pull him of the floor and we grab our jackets from my office.

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"Brian, I don't know if I will ever be okay with being with other men again. I hope that you understand." I run my fingers through his hair. His head resting on my chest.

"I am fine with that actually. I went the past year not bring men home because I had you, even when you were not here with me. I know that means nothing considering the entire time we were together but it's different." I needed him to understand this.

"Look Justin, when I found you in Babylon after the bomb, I changed. I know you always thought I only did it to make you happy. The truth is, I was so afraid I had lost you, the idea almost killed me. I don't need them, any of them, I need you. I figured that out the second I pulled you into my arms in the burned out remains of babylon that you were the single most important thing to me."

He looked up and pressed his lips to mine. I kissed him back and then rested his head back on my chest. "Get some sleep Sunshine. I love you."

"I love you too Brian."

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I was sitting up in bed looking through paperwork while Justin slept. I have not been able to sleep much lately, worried about Justin's nightmares. The phone rings and I reach for it quick before it wakes him up.

"Hello?" It's like five in the morning.

"Brian, I am sorry to call so early." It was Jen.

"It's fine, is everything okay?" Why would she be calling this early. That's not like her.

"Um, I don't know." She seemed nervous, I don't like this. "My plane just landed and I checked my messages and I had one from Craig. He wants to see Justin."

I quickly moved off the bed and left the bedroom. "No fucking way. The last time he saw him, he had him arrested." I was breathing heavy.

"I know, trust me I don't like it either. Just give Justin a heads up so he isn't caught of guard if he runs into him." I can do that.

"Of course I will. Thanks for letting us know. Bye." I hung up. What the hell does Craig want with Justin now.

"No... no get away." Shit Justin. I ran into the bedroom and climbed in next to him pulling him into arms. He relax as soon as my arms wrapped around him.

"Shh... your okay. I'm here, your gonna be Okay." I bury my face in the back of his neck and hold him tight against me. I feel my eyes grow heavy and fall asleep holding him.