a week has passed and Kian and I were clearly on a break from each other well that's what I'm thinking considering the fact that we haven't talked or text or even bothered to see each other at all. Meredith continues to text and call my phone, but I don't think that me showing the shady tweets and text message or voicemails to anybody would actually help me as of right now so I won't even try to play the victim. I was wrong for putting my hands on her, but it felt great to drag her ass across the grass for talking shit.
When she told me that she had slept with him, of course, I didn't believe a word that she said, but it aggravated me that she would go that far just to get a reaction out of me. My mom gave me a lot to think about that night and she was right. I should have pulled him to the side so that we could discuss the situation, but when you're mad..you're not in control of what you do.
I stared out of my bedroom window and I saw a teenage couple happily holding hands and smiling in each other's faces. Usually, I would admire things like this and I would think about me and kian being this way, but I don't give a damn about love anymore. The shit is a waste of time and it's gonna leave you sad and alone to die.
It's just like you want that kind of love that you see in the movies or what you see on Instagram & Twitter, but in real life that's just a picture or a video that people were stunting for. There's always a story behind every single couple and you're only wishing to achieve the type of ''lies'' that they're achieving, nobody is ever truly happy in a relationship and I was proved right by Kian And Meredith. (that shit was deep af, deeper than SOMEBODY'S POEMS)
"Justin, Kian is here." I heard my mother shout. I didn't bother to move or anything. I just couldn't care less if he was here or not. I'm tired of waiting for him to see the truth and I'm tired of him treating me as If I'm his runner-up, they say that second place always has a lot to prove, but I refuse to prove anything to someone who puts me in second place, fuck her and fuck him too.
"Jaysee, can I please come in so that we can talk?" I ignored him and threw my covers over my head. ''We have to talk about this.'' I still ignored him.
"You know what, I just came here to tell you that I think it'll be a good idea if you and I broke up. I've tried to make this work with you, but you're a selfish ass person and you've turned into someone that I don't even know anymore. I'm sorry, but we're over." I could still hear him breathing, so he was obviously still standing there.
"goodbye Kian.'' I said.
