""What do you do when the one person you want comfort from the most is the one who caused your pain? How can I want so desperately for him to wrap me up in his arms but also want so much for him to leave me alone."
"Must I go bound while you go free
Must I love a man who doesn't love me
Must I be born with so little art
As to love a man who'll break my Heart"
"Love is never supposed to hurt. Love is supposed to heal, to be your haven from misery, to make living fucking worthwhile."
I stared at the words that were now in my diary. My tears filled the paper and I just threw the pen onto the floor and the book went right behind it. Every time that I get sad I just become this poetic person and it drives me crazy and it makes me angry and sad at the same time and I can't control my feelings anymore. He broke up with me and he chose to believe someone else that he's only known for a short period of time over someone that he's known for years. I thought we were happy and I thought that we had trust in our relationship, but I guess that I was wrong.
Why can't I get over him? he's just a damn boy and I've been through harder things and I've made it through it all and I'm stronger than this. I can't keep crying and wondering why this shit had to happen to me, I gotta do what's best for me. I got out of the bed and I put on my shoes. Maybe, I should just go for a walk so that I can clear my head and hopefully stop moping about this. If he wanted me then he would be here. I grabbed my phone from the charger and I opened my room door.
I was quickly pushed onto my own bed and before I could say anything Kian was already on top of me. He looked at me with tears in his eyes and he just started to kiss me.
