C is for Caroline

8 | velvety voiced moaning and a whole lotta lube

Okay, so I know I've been gone for a while but that's only because I didn't really have anything new to report and I'm not really trying to tire myself out with telling you all more than what's necessary. I'm a busy guy, you know. Betsy's not gonna work herself.

So yeah, things have been pretty same same recently, great, but same same. Caroline and I have still been having steady sex, and slowly but surely she's been warming up to me.

We've never officially "hung out", meaning just spending time together without sex, but we have been talking more and more before and after the deed. She hasn't been so quick to get down to business or kick me out afterwards, she's actually let conversation happen between us and seems to now enjoy it.

I got to know more about her just as she did me. We figured out that we're both only children and found it amusing how different we turned out despite that. She learned about my failed college endeavors and severed ties with my parents, about my embarrassing job and annoying roommate, and I learned...um—okay, so I may not have learned as much about her as I originally thought. I mean now that I look back on it, I did do most of the talking...

All that I really knew about her was that she didn't particularly love her job and that she didn't really have a relationship with her father (if he was even still around anymore...?).

I learnt all of this from observing her though, not from her actually telling me any of it. She seemed to enjoy hearing about me, but it's crazy that I'm just now noticing how good she was at making me feel like I was really getting to know her without actually telling me anything.

I honestly knew close to nothing about her. I felt like I knew who she was as an individual, but in regards to the life around her I was pretty oblivious, and I didn't want to be.

Don't tell her I said this, but apart from Anika, I think I may be her only friend.

Like, she has her model peeps that she has to spend time with for work, but outside of work, she doesn't bother herself with people she doesn't fuck with, and the only people I've seen her voluntarily speak to in the month and a half we've been doing whatever this is, are Anika, her mother, and me.

And even though I know she really doesn't need anyone, noticing that makes me want to be even more there for her. In fact, every now and then I like to fantasize about what it would be like if we were dating. I'm well aware that's never going to happen, but it's just really funny that when I imagine it, it's not much different from what we have now. The only big difference would be us being able to take each other out in public, but other than that we're basically already a certified couple.

Sex?

Check.

Conversation?

Check.

Enjoyment of each other's company?

Check.

Compatibility?

Surprisingly, check.

Like, literally all we're missing would be official commitment to each other, and I haven't banged a single person but Caroline ever since the first time we fucked, and for as long as we're fucking I have no interest in doing so.

And I don't know for sure, but I'm pretty confident she hasn't either since we've been getting together almost every day. It would be kind of hard to sneak in other people between meet-ups...

Anyway...wow, I feel like I've gotten waaay off track. Where was I? Oh, right! So things have been pretty same same with us; we have the usual great conversation and life-changing sex, but nothing crazy enough to compel me to tell you guys anything—until today that is.