You Belong With Me

Making Up

I awoke the next morning feeling some better. I was still sore but not quite as bad. I felt warm arms around me and I looked over to see Jiyong sleeping peacefully. I scooted out of bed and quietly went into the bathroom to shower. When I walked out he was still sleeping and I went down to the lobby and ordered a breakfast tray to be sent up to my room in a couple hours.

I was at a lost of what to do. I was still so ashamed of myself and didn't feel like I deserved to be so close to him. When I told him what had happened to me he believed me without a second thought. He held me and let me cry in his arms. He held me all night long. He had come to me for the same comfort and I just succeeded in making him feel even more like shit.

I decided to go have my breakfast alone and wait until I figured he was done to go back up to my room.

After eating I walked to a nearby gift shop and looked around. Before I knew I had spent 3 hours just window shopping. It was pushing noon and I realized Jiyong probably had to get to work.

I hurried back to the hotel and when I entered the room he was sitting up in bed eating the breakfast I had sent up to him.

"I was wondering what happened to you," he said with a smile.

"I just needed to go for a walk" I said with a shrug. Busying myself with folding my clothes I had brought with me. They didn't really need it I was just doing it to avoid looking at him. 

My guilt was still threatening to eat me alive. I heard him push the tray aside and stand up. He came over and wrapped his arms around my shoulders giving me a back hug.

I stood up which successfully got him to let go with me being to obvious.

"I probably should get you to work," I said putting my bag back into the hotel closet.

"We actually have the next couple days off," he said and I didn't have to turn to know he was walking up behind me.

"I should take you home then," I said walking away from him again still not looking at him.

"OK" was all he said as he started putting his socks and shoes on. I took that moment to look at him.

He was so breathtaking I just wanted to wrap my limbs around him and hold him forever but he deserved so much better than me. I saw him take his phone out and send some text messages. I figured his manager and bandmates had checked to see if he was OK.

I got my purse and keys and he slipped his phone back in his pocket as he followed me out of the room.

When we pulled into the driveway of his house I saw the rest of BIGBANG standing there waiting for him. My heart plummeted to my feet and I felt like I was going to be sick. I know they didn't think to highly of me anymore.

"I'll see you later Ji," I said as he started to get out of my car.

"Don't you wanna come hang out?" Jiyong asked me.

"I don't think my presence will be very welcome" I said looking at the 4 members standing on Jiyong's porch rather then at Jiyong.

"They don't hate you or anything," He said trying to catch my gaze.

I turned my head and looked out my window blinking away the tears.

"That's not the impression I got when I saw them at YG," I said pleased I was able to keep my voice steady.

"They were angry, they are a little protective I guess," he said glancing over at his friends.

"Come on,  I promise you they don't hate you," he said grabbing my hand. I pulled my hand away and put it in my lap.