You Belong With Me

Truth Comes Out

It had been a month since I kicked Jiyong out of my house. I shouldn't of been so angry with him since we weren't even a couple when I had caught him at the party. But, I was so hurt.

I decided to go out to lunch at a nearby restaurant. A couple girls came in and sat at the table behind me.

"Man the party tomorrow night is going to be so fun, cant believe BIGBANG is allowing a handful of VIP in so we can party with them and some of the YG staff," one girl said excitedly.

"I know, but they are only allowing the first 50 people in so we have to get there super early," the other girl said.

Normally I would of been excited because usually Jiyong would of probably invited me. I made it a point to avoid anything involving him for the past month so I was out of the VIP loop.

"Do you think she will be there?" I heard one of the girls ask.

"I doubt it, not with the cops searching for her," The other girl said.

"Its still hard to believe Jiyongie got raped at that party," I heard them say and I immediately felt like I was going to be sick.

"How did she get caught again?" They continued talking.

"I dont know really, from what I heard some female friend of his walked in on them and dropped her drinks. The sound of shattering glass got securities attention but the girl that was ontop of Ji fled before the cops could get there," the other finished.

My poor Jiyongie, I could feel the tears stinging my eyes as guilt threatened to crush me. I threw my money for me meal down on the table and ran out the door. I had to find him. I took a minute to try and think where he would be. Deciding work was the best bet, I googled the address to the YG office entered it in my GPS and rushed there. I didnt have a plan to actually get in to see Jiyong but I lucked out when I saw Youngbae and Seunghyun standing outside. I ran up to them and stopped to catch my breath.

"Is Jiyong here," I asked panting

"Yes, he is up in the studio," Youngbae said he didnt seem particularly overjoyed to see me and I knew why. He knew what had happened and he probably also knew I didn't give Jiyong a chance to explain himself.

"Im not sure he wants to see you," Seunghyun said coldly

I grabbed his wrist and looked up at him. Tears streaming down my cheeks.

"Please, I have to talk to him" I begged.

They looked at each other and sighed. They entered the code to the building and stepped inside holding the door open for me. I followed them quietly as they lead me to the studio.

"Wait here a minute," Youngbae said and he and Seunghyun went inside shutting the door.

Time had never gone by so slowly and I was only waiting for 5 minutes. The door opened and Seungri, Daesung, Seunghyun, and Youngbae all walked out glaring at me and it sent a shiver of fear up my spine.

"He said you can come in, we're going to the cafeteria to give you guys some privacy," Seunghyun said and they walked off without another word. I deserved the cold treatment after what I did.

I took a deep breath and opened the door. Jiyong was sitting at the table bent over writing in a notebook. I stepped inside and closed it. He looked up at me and the look of complete despair made my heart ache.

"What do you want?" He said harshly and it was my turn to flinch.

"I came to apologize to you, I found out what happened that night at the party and I feel terrible about how I reacted and treated you. I should of given you the chance to explain...im just...im so sorry Jiyong," I gasped as I started sobbing.

"It's a bit late for an apology, Zia," He said coldly.

"I know that, and no im not looking for your forgiveness, but I just had to come apologize to you. You can hate me forever, I deserve that," I whispered at him.

"Are you done, im kinda busy" he said going back to writing.

There was nothing more I could say I just backed away towards the door and opened it.

"I have a new girlfriend," I heard him say as I stepped out into the hall.

I turned and looked at him it felt like someone had just stabbed and knife in my heart.

"Im happy for you, I wish you guys the best," I said shutting the door as fresh tears poured down my cheeks.

I rushed down the hallway passing the other BIGBANG members as they made their way back to the studio. I heard Youngbae call after me and his voice sounded more concerned then angry but I didnt stop. I got into my car and sped home. Once home I tore my clothes off and jumped into the shower as hot as I could stand. I curled into a ball under the water and screamed and cried until I was exhausted and my skin was red and wrinkled.

I got out and dressed in blue jeans and a sweatshirt, I needed to get drunk and forget. Just for a few hours. I called a cab and went to a bar not to far from my house.

I drank past the point of being drunk, maybe I was trying to drink myself into a fatal coma. I wanted to die I couldn't live with myself knowing what I put Jiyong through. He came to me for comfort and to make sense out of what happened to him and all I did was attack him. I needed to get home, I was barely able to walk on my own.

A hand slipped around my waist and I looked up to see a very average looking asian man standing way to close to me.

"Do you need some help?" He asked me.

"I just need to get home" I said trying to step away from him but I stumbled.

"Ill help you get there," he said helping me out of the building.

"I just need a cab," I said trying to get my new phone out of my pocket.

"Dont worry about a cab, I can get you home. Its no trouble," he said making me lean against him.

I was to drunk to care, if I tried to push him away I most likely would of fallen on my ass in the process.

I let him lead me to his car and was able to give him directions to my home. Unbeknownst to me I was about to have one more thing in common with Jiyong.