Jiyong wasnt kidding about it taking a few days. After the third day of me driving myself crazy thinking about him I received a text from him.
"Hi Zia, Dinner? 8pm?" he had sent to me.
"Sure Ji," I messaged back after forcing myself to wait and hour. I didnt want to come off as to eager or desperate.
"Awesome, pick you up at your hotel," he messaged back instantly.
At about 7pm I showered and dressed. I hope I wasnt dressing to fancy or slutty but I wanted to look nice.
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At 8pm on the mark he called me.
"Hi, Ji" I said cheerfully
"Hey im here, black bentley infront of the lobby," he said
"Ok on my way," I said hanging up and grabbing my purse.
I also grabbed my jacket just incase I got cold. And hurried outside. I saw his car instantly and walked over to it. I couldnt see inside because of the dark tinted windows. My heart was starting to race again. I opened the passenger side door and he had a bright smile on his face and he looked absolutely divine.
"You look great," he said as i slid in careful to not expose anymore flesh then I already showed.
"Thank you, so do you," I said returning his smile only I know mine came off way more bashful. I could feel the heat in my cheeks.
He drove to a restaurant that surprisingly didnt seem very busy and there werent alot of people standing around trying to catch a glimpse of GD. He got out of the drivers side and walked around the car. He opened the passenger door and offered me his hand. Always the gentleman, the way I had always remembered him. I remembered when I had gotten beaten up at the school by a bunch of girls and him offering me his hand then too. I took his hand, his skin was so soft and warm I felt myself flush. Once out of the car he put his hand on the curve of my lower back and my body shivered.
"You alright?" I heard him ask me
"Yeah just a little chilly out here," It was a small lie and I already felt guilty. But I couldnt tell him 'no you turn my ecstacy' we had never kissed and we had never done anything sexual together.
I had a feeling Jiyong wasnt a virgin. I knew he had girlfriends in the past and I was pretty sure he was seeing someone now. I felt the tingling pricks of jealousy in my gut but forced them away.
We got to our table, it was private and in the back. No windows and just a single door that was kept closed. I found myself thinking that this was a bit intimate for a catch up dinner but then remembered that because of who he was he had to go the extra mile to have any kind of privacy.
"So what have you been doing the past 10 years?" He asked me sipping at his water.
"Nothing very exciting really, I was a secretary for awhile but when my mom got sick I quit to help take care of her." I said finishing my salad.
He didnt really have to tell me what he had been up to because he already knew I had been following his career.
"Seeing anyone?" He asked, well he had always been direct.
"I tried the dating thing a few times, I was engaged for 2 years. After my mother died our relationship fell apart. I just havent felt like getting back into the dating scene since. Men kind of irritate me." I said with a small sigh.
"Why?" He asked me and I looked at him.
"Because atleast the ones I have dated are all sweet as pie until you wont spread your legs for them then they become complete jerks and cheat on you. My ex fiance too," I said trying to keep the bitterness out of my voice but failing.
He sighed amd glanced down at his meal.
"Hope you dont think Im a bad guy," he said quietly.
"No, only the guys that have an interest in me," I said smiling at him.
He smiled softly and caught my eyes with his.
"What about you?" I asked, I wasnt sure I really wanted him to answer. If he was single then I thought I may have a chance if he wasn't i knew my heart would break.
"Ive dated and the more recent girlfriend I have, we are kind of off right now, I guess" he said with a slight shrug of his shoulders.
So he was kind of seeing someone, I saw a small glimmer of hope for me which help keep my heart from falling apart.
"Can I ask why?" I asked him
"Because I wont have sex with her," he said and I almost laughed at the similarity between us but I swallowed it down.
"Im not a virgin but because we are on and off so much I just dont feel right about doing that with her," he continued and there was my jealousy, some lucky girl or girls had seen Jiyong in his most intimate and vulnerable moments.
I sighed and looked down at my food suddenly feeling my appetite diminish.
"Im a virgin, thats why all my relationships fall apart. Its not that im waiting for marriage or anything. Its just I haven't been with someone that I felt like giving that to. Its precious to me, I cant get it back once its gone. I feel it should be reserved for that someone special," I said pushing my plate away.
He seemed to notice my mood darken at our conversation and decided maybe we should go. He went and paid and got me a to go box.
We pulled into the hotel and I looked at him. Our car ride had been silent. I wasnt angry at him I was so damn attracted to him and I wanted to tell him but I knew he had somebody even though they were taking a break at the moment he was still technically in a relationship.
"Thank you for dinner Jiyong," I said to him and he smiled and nodded.
"I know your busy but let me know if you ever want to hang out again. I live here now so Ill be around," I said about to open his door when his hand closed on my left wrist and pulled me towards him.
Before I could process anything his lips were on mine and before I could swallow it down I moaned against his lips. His tounge licked at my bottom lip and I opened my mouth allowing him entrance. I started to feel dizzy on my sudden arousal. I felt his hand drop to my inner thigh and it was my automatic response of opening my legs the forced me to reign in my lust and gently push him back.
"I cant, im sorry," I was breathless and shaking in need but he wasnt single and I refused to be the other woman. I quickly got out of his car before he could say anything.
"Goodnight Jiyong," I shut the door and practically ran into the hotel lobby.
I got to my room and flung myself on the bed sobbing out of frustration and need.
