key to my heart | jariana

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About all that happened today.. I woke up today, planning to do last minute homework, but guess what? I woke up and I saw Xavier Leeds tweeting about someone drunk driving and getting arrested. I went on instagram and my whole newsfeed was about Justin getting arrested. I started crying. And I couldn't stop. I was almost late to school this morning because I was crying. All of the friends began asking, "Are you okay?" / "Have you heard of Justin getting arrested?" / etc. I was so fucking sad today, you guys don't even understand. I was silently crying in almost every class today, as more news about him came in. When I found out he was in a depression for 5 months, I almost got kicked out of the my class because I was bawling my eyeballs out. My baby..the one who's helping me out of my depression..is in one..and I can't save him like he's saving me. Do you know how much that hurts?

Okay, yeah I'll admit it. Justin can be rude sometimes. He can be disrespectful at times. He can be stupid during the most crucial times. He messed up on multiple occasions. But he's human. He makes mistakes. But I love him.. Maybe you don't, and maybe you don't understand why people and I love him so much, but I do so much. And it's okay that you don't, I'm not going to force anyone to, or force anyone to even respect him anymore because that's your opinion. Yes, I stand up to him because he's one of my idols, just like how I'll stand up for One Direction or Ariana Grande, because they're my idols also.

The Justin Bieber that you think of isn't just the one you hear about in the media. He's Justin Bieber, the one who donates millions to charities. He's Justin Bieber, the one who goes to places to help children and people in need. He's Justin Bieber, the one who visits sick children in hospitals. They don't say that in the news. All you hear is, "Justin Bieber slept with a prostitute", "Justin Bieber spit on fans", "Justin Bieber gets arrested for drunk driving", etc. The media created a Justin that doesn't exist. But he is way more than that. He may be an adult in two months, and that you think he should start acting his age, but how can he when he was forced to grow up so quickly with the whole world watching? Imagine being judged by the whole world because that's what Justin is going through. No one knows what it's like to be Justin Bieber, the guy that everyone is trying to tear down. And it breaks my heart when I see him hurting like this. He's been in a depression for 5 months.. He's been taking anti-depressant pills.. He's been having suicidal thoughts.. I can't stand that. The one who keeps me from killing myself has been thinking of killing himself. The one who keeps me alive doesn't want to be. He means so much to me; he means more to me than I mean to myself. He makes mistakes because he's human. Teens do this all the time. I know I'm ranting right now, but I do love him, okay. And I'll do anything to stand up for him. You may not like him, you may not respect, but I'm never going to stop loving him..

And to all the haters out there, if you don't like Justin Bieber, then there's no point of his name coming out of your mouth.