I know you didn't have the perfect life everyone thought.
I know how you felt pressure to follow what your parents wanted and be a star athlete.
I remember how you felt unwanted and a disappointment to your father when you didn't make it on the team.
He really wanted you on it. But you didn't really care.
you told me how you cried when they tried to sort it out. Cried when you talked to your brother about it.
You even put off cross country and basketball for your dad.
Even though I knew you wanted to do them.
You always put other people in front of yourself.
It's just you're so nice you don't see people push you of or take advantage of you.
Every time that happens I want to hold you and keep you safe so you don't have to feel alone. Or the pressure. Because I know what that feels like and I don't want you to ever go through that.
Sure I know you love it and you love your dad that's why you do it. But sometimes you made it seem like you don't want to play anymore but your dad does.
Today in my practice the team was shooting 3pointers are making dares like "if I make this you have to ask out that person."
Well aren't I'm lucky that the person that made a dare was "her"
And you know what she said?
"If I make this Frances, you have to ask out."...and then she said your name.
That made me feel sick. I didn't want to look at you that way.
I never agreed to he saying my name. She thinks she knows everything. But she doesn't. She doesn't know that I dont look at you romantically but as my best friend. Someone I love.
She doesn't know....
Doesn't know that I'm not straight.
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Just another depressed girl.
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