Played By Fate

25♧ Why are you being like this?

Y/N's POV

October 2015

This will be a busy month for iKON as they will be having fanmeetings throughout Japan and China. As an errand girl, I need to go wherever they go but they were so busy with their fans that I barely talked to any of them during their first iKontact in Seoul on the 3rd.

I'm glad because Hanbin is so busy that he didn't have time to hang around with me because I know that he likes me.

And I know that I will hurt him because I don't feel the same way towards him.

He said he would wait but he's a kind soul and I can't tell him in his face that it was impossible for us. I bet he'll be so hurt.

After that incident, somehow Hanbin and Jinhwan had made up and I'm so glad about that.

But there is still a tinge of awkwardness between them and I'm guessing they still needed some time.

However, Jinhwan...

I don't know if I'm being over-sensitive but I felt like he has drifted apart from me.

He smiled at me, he talked to me.

But now I felt like.... it's just out of politeness. The way he converse with me is just like how he would converse with any other staffs.

Jinhwan...

Then why did you try to kiss me back then?

I thought we still stand a chance to be like before...

And I thought...

You like me.

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I took a breathe out at the rooftop of YG Building as I enjoyed my lunch.

The weather is so good. There is no sun and there are small gushes of wind. The boys are out to attend some sort of YG Family function but I'm not too sure about that.

As I'm also not obliged to know anything else except those concerning iKON's promoting and debut activities.

I snapped out from my thoughts about him when I feel a presence sitting right beside me.

"Hey."

A husky deep voice greeted me.

"Junhoe? I thought you're supposed to be at the function with the other members? So what are you doing here?"

"Shut up, you're so noisy. I sneaked back because I don't like it. It's so boring." Then he laid down on the floor as he looked up to the cloudy sky.

"Tsk. As sassy as usual. What if you get caught? " Then I followed suit what he did as I also laid down.

"They won't do anything to me. Since I'm an important role in iKON and they can't do without me." He smirked.

I chuckled at him.

"Arrogant biatch."

My chuckles faded as I continue to look at the sky while going back to my reverie.

"Are you thinking about Jinhwan hyung?"

I gulped and turned to face him.

Did he just read my mind?

"Ani.." I lied.

"Tsk. Your red face had shown it all, pabo."

I quickly covered my face and damn, it is even hot.

"What- what do you know?" I snapped back.

"Relationship not going well eh?"

"We aren't even in a relationship. I'm nothing to him." I looked down as I looked at my fingers.

"You'll continue to be nothing if you don't do anything."

Huh? I widened my eyes. So what does a small kid like him know?

I remained silent. Then Junhoe got up abruptedly.

"For your infomation, hyung is a dumbo. He wouldn't know unless you tell him." Then he took a few steps away from me.

"Oh, and one more thing. He is a petty jelly." He laughed and then left.

So why on earth did this kid come huh? And talk about things I don't really understand.

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Apparently I will be following iKON to Japan for their iKontact fanmeetings next week.

My relationship with Jinhwan haven't got any better and Junhoe's words always replayed in my brain.

"For your infomation, hyung is a dumbo. He wouldn't know unless you tell him."

Hmmm... should I tell him how I really feels?

That's it. I'm gonna try. I don't like the feeling of having something hanging in my heart.

After iKON got back from the function, they got changed into their casual attires and started practicing the cheoreography of their new songs again.

I pity the boys because they don't really have free time on hand. It's either they are attending some activites or they'll be at the recording room practicing singing or practicing for their choreos.

"Take 5 minutes' break!"

Hanbin's voice erupted around the practice room as the boys collapsed to the floor with sweat trickling down their foreheads.

Jinhwan went to the corner of the practice room to fetch his water bottle when I decided to talk to him and sort out our feelings.

"Jinhwan..."

After so long, this is the first time I'm trying to call him casual without formalities... would he mind it?

I stood there anxiously as I waited for him to answer my call.

I could clearly see the shock on his face which was quickly replaced by a glimpse of happiness that I think he had been trying to hide.

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Jinhwan's POV

This is the first time she's calling my name like that after so long.

I was startled of course, but I was happy.

I felt that we are closer and hopefully we will get back to how we used to be in the past.

In fact, I was overjoyed! But I couldn't let her see how happy I was.. I wanted to act mature in her face but I knew I failed terribly.

I just couldn't hide my emotions.

"I think we need to talk." She braved herself and spat out.

Yeah... we really need... but some part of me is afraid of what she's going to tell me.

She took a deep breathe before continuing.

"Can we go outside to ta--"

Her sentence was cut off when B.I aprroached us and draped his arm around her shoulders.

My fists tightened up as I glared at him before muttering,

"Nah, I don't see the need."

Damn you Kim Jinhwan, your ego is coming out again. I mentally punched myself.