Beautiful Disaster

So let me till you a little about my self my name is Zera. I am 21 years old and I'm not your typical South Dakota girl.

My ear lobes are stretched to about the size of a quarter. I have my nose tongue and uh the girls pierced. I have long bleach blond hair but the left side of my head is shaved. And from neck down I'm covered in tattoos.
Like I said I'm not your typical 21 year old but were I live and and work I'm just the girl next door.

Let's go back 3 years.

"Zera!! Take your sister out mommy has a friend coming over." She slurred and she walked in to her bedroom and fluffed her bed up.

My mom was a no good junkie. Her 'friend' that was coming over was probably another random that she met that said he could get her her shit if she uhh 'keeps him company'.

We lived in a very small trailer in a shitty ass trailer park. So I walked over to me and my little sister Zoe's room. (The living room)

"Come on ZoeZoe let's go to see nana!" her eyes lit with joy. She loved when we went to nana's. My grandmother was the complete opposite of my mother. She was kind and loving and devoted every minute to me and Zoe. However my grandmother was very old and was starting to lose it. When we'd go to see her 50% of the time she didn't recognize us.
It hurts me to go and see her in the home but I defiantly don't want to be there when my mothers company comes over.

I packed up the six year old and packed up some toys for her.

When we got to the nursing home I has so thrilled to see that she remembered us today and welcomed us with open arms.

"It's so good to see you girls I've missed you so much! Zoe you have gotten to big! Zera..." She looked me up and down "you will always be beautiful sweetie I just don't know why you want to ruin your body with those damn tattoos!" she chuckled. (At this time I maybe had five)

"Love you too nana" I laughed and gave her a hug and kiss.
We sat around all day and played board games and talked about school.

"Your in kindergarten! Boy your getting old!" my nana joked with Zoe.

"I'm not old nana!" she let out the cutest giggle.

"Zera did you graduate yet?" she asked.

"Uh yeah gram last year remember?" that was a lie I dropped out my junior year so I could take care of Zoe because my moms usage went up.

"Oh that's right dear! Zoe why don't you go pick out another puzzle me and Zer need to have grown up talk." Nana pointed to the shelf with a million puzzles on it.

"Okay nan!" Zoe jumped up and looked through the puzzles.

My heart sank when my nan looked at me with tears dwelling in her eyes.

"Zera listen I know I keep going in and out of my remembrance. Some days I'm here and some days I'm not. The doctors told me today that it looks like my bad days are overpowering my good ones and that it won't be long till I forget everything." my eyes now started to tear up as nana slide me an envelope. "You know my old house in Sturgis the one me and pap pap owned" I nodded my head I love that house. "Well this is the dead tithe house and enough money to last you and Zoe for a lifetime. I want you out of that trailer park and FAR away from your mother. Please take this and go. You and Zoe are both so bright and I will be damned if you end up like you whore mother. Please promise me you will leave tonight." Tears were falling down my faces and I hugged my nana "Thank you I love you so much!"

"I love you too my dear."

We didn't leave until 9pm and I took Zoe out for ice cream. By the time we got home Zoe was a sleep in the car. My nanas voice replaying in my head leave tonight.
So I did I creeped slowly in I the trailer to see needles in the kitchen table and my mom passed out in her bed.