Beautiful Disaster

Twelve.

Me, Skuz, Barbie, and Zoe rushed to the hospital. As we pull up to the entrance my heart sinks.

She won't even remember us.

I hold on to Zoe's hand tightly. My nana was my role model the only one I had to look up to growing up. She was out savor. When Angela would get all doped up and have her men over. All I had to do was call nana and papa and they would come and save me and Zoe. I remember nana fighting with Angela to get custody of us but Angela threatened nana saying if she tried to take us away that she would take me and Zoe and move out of state.

Nana didn't want to lose us so she backed off.

I've always hated hospitals they are so cold and depressing. We walk down the hall ways searching for room 376 A in the west wing. Me and Zoe follow behind Skuz and Barbie.

"Zera I'm scared."

I have her little hand a squeeze.

"It's okay Zoe everything will be alright. Just don't be alarmed if nana doesn't remember is.."

"I know.." she looked down at her feet.

Barbie and Skuz stopped. I looked at the closed door. Beside it it read ' suite 376 A'

This is it. My heart was racing I was scared excited nervous, and sick to my stomach.

Skuz looked at me "Are you ready?"

I took a deep breath and nodded my head. He opened the door. Him and Barbie walked in first. Me and Zoe followed close behind. I kept my head down, looking at my feet. I heard her sweet, loving voice.

"Oh skuzzy! barbie! oh my it's so good to see you two!" she hugged them both. I could feel all eyes on me. I looked up to see my nana with a smile on her face.

"Are these your girls Skuz?"

My eyes met hers for a minute. I could feel the tears streaming down my face.

"Yes Julie. This is Zera and Zoe." Skuz's voice cracked a little.

"It's so nice to meet you girls!" she have a warm smile. "I'm sorry that the first time meeting me you have to see me looking a mess in a hospital bed!" she laughed. But he laugh turned in to a serious cough. She felt around for a breathing mask.

She held it to her face and took a few deep breaths.

"The docs tell me this fudging cancer spread to my left lung."

I sat beside her bed and Zoe sat on my lap. She was doing better than I was. I was trying to wipe the tears from my face but they were just pouring out.

"Sweetie why are you crying?"

"I-I.."

Barbie cut me off "hospitals make her really emotional."

"Oh sweetie," nana reached over and grabbed my hand "they really aren't that bad." She gave my hand a little squeeze and I have her a little smile.

"I guess so." I managed to say.

She let go of my hand.

"Did you guys pass through the food court at all? Jon was suppose to be getting me a cup of coffee, hopefully he didn't run off with a young nurse!" she gave us a wink and started laughing/coughing again. She grabbed her mask and took a few breathes.

Just then the doctor walked in.

"Hello Julie! how are you this morning?"

"I think I'm ready to go home" she joked "I love being here with you doc but I gotta get home my daughter should be coming home from school shortly."