Ashton has always loved his brothers. When he was younger he use to self harm which he has always been public about. When Luke, Calm, and Michael are in the back of the tour bus talking bad about Ashton and he hears them he starts writing in his jou...
Lately after shows I have been thinking a lot. And last week I ended up doing something I haven't done in years. I picked up a old habits that has helped me before. Something I have stopped but now started to do again.
Last week I took a razor locked myself in the bathroom. Then I self harmed. It felt good actually. After cutting 3 lines perfectly I put it away and cleaned myself up. I saw that their was a few bracelets on the counter and grabbed them. I put them on after bandaging up my wrist.
I don't think anyone will notice. Hell you won't care. You guys didn't even notice I had left for a bit. When I got back to the stage you guys didn't see I had on bracelets. I don't know how you didn't notice. I went to the dressing room after rehearsal and grabbed my hoodie.
After the concert we had a meet and greet. I was sitting next to Calm and Michael. You guys might not remember but a girl asked me why I was wearing my hoodie and bracelets. I told her because I wanted to. And she had a sad face after that. She actually looked worried. But you didn't and that got me feeling sad.
During the other concerts I have been self harming more. I have even stopped talking as much as before in interviews.
Luke you even asked me why I didn't answer the questions. And I just shrugged and told you that I wasn't feeling to good. Did you once asked me why or what's wrong?No you didn't. Why because you don't care. No one does.
Michael you saw a little blood on my wrist once. You asked what it was and I said that it's read sharpie. Did you notice the book fell to the ground or even ask why ur looked that way? No because you don't care.
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Calum you saw a girl that was named Autumn that has gone to mostly every show and follows us on twitter and instagram. She told you that she was worried about me. Do you remember what you told her? I do you said I'm fine and took a picture with her. But really Calum...
