Love or Death - Taro x Ayano x Budo

Chapter 9: Second Personality

Now in perspective of Ayano:
After school me and Budo went home.
"I'm going to the store to buy ingredients for dinner. Do you want something specific?". Budo's mom asked. "No, buy whatever you want". "Okay, bye". She smiled as usual and left. "She really is amazing, she is so nice". I hugged him. "You are also amazing". He kissed my forehead.
We went to his room to do homework. "How is it that you are in an upper class but I have to help you with math?". "I just don't understand this stuff with vector... something". "Vector algebra... How did you even pass the grade?". "With luck and with a smart guy sitting next to me in class". "So you cheated...". "Don't put it that way, I just found some inspiration when I had tests". "It is cheating...". Sigh. "You should at try, you have good grades at everything except math". "Because math is stupid and I don't need perfect grades at useless classes". "But you need to at least pass. Or do you want to repeat a year and have to have another year of tests?". "No! No more tests!". "Then stop complaining and let me help you". He may look and act mature and tough, but he is actually childish and complains about every thing he finds hard. "How do you do it?". "What?". "Be so perfect... You have always at least 95 in every test and you are so amazing in everything?". "I'm not perfect! I just try my best at everything so I don't regret later... And I suck at cooking or any other household stuff". "Yeah you can't even fold your clothes properly and I still haven't forgotten how I almost chocked to death from that egg shell". He laughed and I pushed his arm playfully. Then his face turned serious and he took a deep breath. "ALL RIGHT! Let's study!". "Finally, but please don't scream".
After I helped him with the basics I went to take a bath. The more time we spend together the more I discover sides of Budo that I never would have guessed existed. Not just that he is good at cooking, but he is also good at cleaning and sewing, since his mother is very similar to me, we both are bad at this stuff. He keeps telling me that I am amazing, but he is the amazing one, I just try really hard. I try so hard so I can forget about the thing that I'm truly good at... killing and hurting people... I try so hard because I don't want to be what I was born to be... a murderer... just like my mother... I guess when Taro and his uncle said I wear a mask they were right. I wear it not just to fool other, but to also fool myself, to stop the guilt from overwhelming me. !!! I did it again!! I think bad stuff about myself! I need to stop! Thinking positive is what Budo told me to do. I get out from the bath and look at my body. I'm covered in scars and bruises, the ones from the delinquent girls, the would from Osana and... the cuts from my mother when she tried to make me her puppet... Where is the towel?! I look around and don't find any. "Budo!". He suddenly rushed into the bathroom. "What happened!". I screamed. He realized what was going on and turned redder than a tomato. He looked away and gave me his school jacket. I put it on. "Did something happen?". He asked with a stuttering voice. "There are no towels". He went out of the bathroom. My face was burning and not just from the heat. He came back, he had his eyes closed, he came closer look to me, but... the floor was wet and he slipped and fell. Like in the image at media ^_^ . His arms were on the sink and his face was a few centimeters away from mine. He opened his eyes and turned even redder then before. We were just looking into each others eyes. "H-h-here i-is yo-ur t-owel". He got up and exited the bathroom. Well, that was awkward. Stuff like this only happens in anime, manga or books, this is reality. I dried my body and hair with the towel and put on a black T-shirt and some pants that were long enough to cover the scars from my thighs. I went back to his room. He didn't look at my face. "We have to talk". His voice was serious. "About what?". I said almost whispering. "Those scars and bruises, where did you get them from?". He looked me in the eyes. "What are you talking about, they are the old ones". I laughed. "Stop lying! How many times will I have to tell you that you can trust me?!". I know that I can trust him, but I just don't want to worry him with stupid stuff. "It's not stupid". "How did you...?". "Just tell me". I looked at him, this time he was different, he was mad at me for not telling him. So I decided to tell him every thing that happened with the delinquent and what mom did to me. How she tortured me... "I will make her pay!". "Please just calm down, I don't want to ever involve myself or you with her. Just forget about it". We heard the door downstairs open. "I'm back, could you two come down". She probably wants us to help her prepare the dinner. "You sure took a long time to buy everything". Budo said as we were going down the stairs. "Don't come any closer!". That voice! I came down behind Budo and saw my mother! She had a knife at Budo's moms neck. "Let her go! She is innocent". I yelled at her. "It is your fault for involving her, you shouldn't have ran away". Budo's mom was scared, she didn't know what was going on. "Fine, I will come back, just let her go. Please!". "You aren't getting away this easily. I will show you what happens if you defy me". She made a small cut on the neck as a threat. "Stop!! I promise to never defy or run away!". Next to me was Budo, he was burning with rage. "I told you, I'll teach you the hard way". She moved her knife lower and made another small cut. At that moment Budo went crazy. He threw himself at her, he took her down and took her knife. I ran at his mother, she fell on the floor next to them. I ripped a part of my shirt to cover her cuts. I helped her get up and put her on the couch. Budo was still holding mom down. "It's fine now, you can let her go". He didn't react. "What is it boy? Are you trying to scare me with that expression?". "Budo?". He lifted the arm in witch he had the knife, looked at it a bit and then put it at moms face. "What are you doing boy? Hey! What are you?". She screamed. I ran to him. He was... cutting on her face. "S-STOP!!". She screamed again. I put my hand on his shoulder. "Budo, what are you doing?". He turned his head at me. "Who are you?". "What?". "I asked who are you, dumb bitch". What is going on?!. "Should I also kill you or what". "Budo, what are you talking about?". "How dumb can you be? I asked who are you?". "I-I'm Ayano...". "And what are you to him?". "Him?". "Oh god, how slow can you be. To Budo, what is your relationship with Budo". "You are my boyfriend...". "Finally you said what I asked. And this woman he wanted to kill, who is she?". "She's my mother". "Interesting...". "Can you tell me what is going on with you". "Have you ever heard of split personalities?". I nodded. "Good, I don't have to explain. I am the other Budo, are you following?". "Yes! How dumb do you think I am?". He ignored my question and continue explaining. "He and I are completely different, we don't share memories, so I'm gonna need you to explain what is going on". "She came in here with a knife and threatened your mother. You took her down...". "I see, so it's fine if I play a bit with her before I kill her". Mom laughed. "Boy, as if you could kill me this easily if you only killed one person before". "Is that what you think?". He started laughing, it was a scary laugh, an evil one. "Are you saying you killed more?". Her words weren't said in the same voice as before, she was cautious. "Obviously, he just doesn't know since we don't share memories". He took the knife and prepared to cut her again. "Budo, please stop!". "Why, I missed killing". "I also hate her, but not so much that I'd want her to die". I hugged him from behind. He stopped for a second. I took advantage of that moment and stole the knife from him. "How dare you!". "Sorry, but I can not let you kill with his hands". Mom saw that he wasn't paying attention to her so she ran away. "Look what you have done! Your boyfriends body will now be arrested". "No, you won't be arrested, it's to risky for her. You are safe". He was confused. I went to his mother and helped her with the cuts. She was scared, but understood what was happening. "How long are you going to stay?". She asked Budo. Does she know about his split personality? "I will stay however long I want". Even if they are different personalities he has the same expression when he is annoyed. "I'm sorry I trouble you with th...". "It's fine, I told you already that you can stay here for as long as you want to". "She is staying here?". Budo asked. I guess they really don't share memories.
After I finished with cleaning the cuts we went to Budo's room. "Another shirt gone". I opened the closet and took out a gray shirt and a black bag. "What is this?". He took the bag out of my hand. "Give it back!". "Ooo, is there something embarrassing in here?". He laughed as I struggled to take it back. He opened it and took everything from the bag onto the bed. That bag had... "Now, now, what do we have here". What the bag had were the bloody dress from Taro, the bloody shirt from when Osana stabbed me and some other clothes that had blood on them or were ripped. "I didn't expect this. I didn't think he would have such a girlfriend. You look to dumb to kill someone". "What did you say!". "So you are also deaf?". "Haha, you think you are funny. I'm not going to mess with you anymore, it's clear you are boring and use the same jokes". I headed to the door so I could change in the bathroom. But he put his hand over the door. "Where do you think you are going?". "To change, so move". "Not happening. Not before you apologize". "Fine". He smiled. But I turned back and started taking my shirt off. "What are you doing?!". "If you aren't going to let me leave I'll change here". I finished taking my ripped shirt off when he took me by the wrist. "You are defenseless right now, if I had a knife you would be dead". "If! But you don't". "Next time you will be dead". "If there will be a next time". I showed him the knife I had in the gray shirt. "If I wanted you would be dead now". He laughed. "I guess I shouldn't mess with you. My bad, I should have realized when I saw all of those scars". I put on the shirt. "You probably should go cook dinner, your mom left the bag with ingredients at the door". "Why would I do that?". "Because you are the only one that knows how to cook". "I don't know how, only he knows, I'm not that loser". "He isn't a loser. And you should still cook, it is for sure better then what I can do". "Not going to do it". "Then we're having instant noodles tonight".
I have to be careful, he may be in Budo's body, but it doesn't mean I can be relaxed next to him.