Cheating husband (book 2)

I hate myself

His POV
Lola been acting so weird ever since I signed the company over to her.
She is always on the phone and she look so happy, if I had known this was going to make my wife so happy I would have done it along time ago.
I haven't heard from Kayla since she call me collect but that in it's self has been good I get to spend more time with my kids JJ still hasn't talk to me as much as he use but he started to call me dad again and I know it's because of Lola.
Has for Liam and Natalie they are so happy to have me home early everyday, we spend more time laughing and playing, sometimes I look at JJ and it's seem like he want to join in but something is stopping him.
L- josh where are you
J- games room
L- oh there you are I want you to sign these papers
J- what are they
L- just paper saying that my employees can get a 10% raise
J- Lola you don't have to come to me for things like that it's your company so you can do what you like I'm your employee oh that reminded me do I get that 10% too
L- no you don't I'm thinking about cutting your pay anyway
J- you are not funny have got a wife and kids to feed don't let me have to go to my Lawer's
L- don't let me have to fire you
J- I am the CEO you can't fire me I'm going to call my Lawer I need my 10% my wife won't be happy when I tell her
L- make sure to give her my number and anyway I didn't know your married didn't you try to get in my bed last night
J- yes but you didn't give me none and my wife is ok with us sleeping together she told me you and her is like one person
L- stop being a fool I'm going back to my office Liam is looking for you
J- thanks where is he
L- in his bedroom
With that she went back to her office and I make my way to Liam's room to find all the kids on the floor talking and laughing
J- hey
L/N- dad
J- what's up
N- nothing we just wanted to know if you want to watch a movie with us
J- oh ok I don't see why not, what do you wanna watch
N- can we see ghostbuster
J- yes lets go to the TV room, JJ you coming
JJ- no I'm gonna go read a book
N- please JJ come watch the movie with us, I know you don't like daddy anymore but you still like Liam and me
JJ- Nat
N- I'm sorry I shouldn't have said that
It breaks my heart when Natalie said that and I know it's true because they tell each other everything and the saddest part is I don't know what have done to make my son hates me
J- JJ you don't like me
I feel like a child asking my son that
JJ- I'm sorry dad but can I please go an read my book
J- kids go and wait for us in the TV room
Natalie and Liam take off not before Natalie looks back at JJ with a I'm sorry face
J- JJ can you tell me what have done why you don't like me anymore
JJ- it's nothing dad, so please can I leave
J- not until you tell me what's wrong with you, you have been very disrespectful towards me and I let it go but enough is enough so you are going to tell me what's wrong with you and you are going to tell me now
He just stood there looking at me not saying a word
J- JJ don't let me ask you again
JJ- you hurt mummy
J- what are you talking about I never hurt Lola
JJ- yes you did I came to your office
Oh God no please don't let him say what I think he's going to say
JJ- and I see you getting in a taxi with Kayla and you were kissing her
Oh God no no no
J- have you told your mum this
JJ- no I haven't I don't want her to take us away again because Nat will be upset
J- JJ it's not what you think
JJ- yes it is I know what I saw and if you wanna stand here and tell me what I saw isn't true I'm going to tell mummy and see what she makes of it
J- please JJ don't do that daddy makes a big mistake and I promise you that it will never happen again so please don't say anything to to your mum                    JJ- but mummy is never happy anymore you just make her so sad you don't kiss her like you use to we don't go to grandmas and granddad like we use to so you could take her out you are always at work
J- JJ I promise you that I'm going to make mummy happy and I'll be home for dinner everyday
JJ- you promise
J- yes so please if not for me for your sister and brother lets watch this movie together and please you can't tell your mum about what you saw promise me you won't say anything you have to promise me because if you do your mum will take you guys away from me and back to America and Natalie will hate you forever for it
JJ- ok I promise I will never say anything to mummy
J- ok good boy
JJ make his way out the room
JJ- are you coming
J- just give me a minute
I sat on the bed with my head in my hand thinking what the fuck have I done and hating myself for doing this to my family and asking my 10 year old son to keep secrets from his mum what kind of a man I'm I
I fucking hate myself why the fuck didn't tell Kayla to fuck off when all this started

Sorry for the late update I'll try and have a few more out before the week ends