Cheating husband (book 2)

What have i done

His POV
After the party I take the kids and Breanna back to my house I put the kids to bed and was in my office doing some paper work the party was ok but all I could think about was Lola I love that girl so much
I don't know what I was thinking when I move out I know have hurt her more than she hurt me but yet she gave me a second chance and I couldn't do the same for her
What the fuck I'm I still doing here I need to go and see her and tell her how much I still love her
made my way out of my in home office to find Breanna on the sofa watching a movie
J- what you watching
B- ghostbuster
J- oh ok can you listen out for the kids for me
B- where are you going
J- just popping out for a bit
B- oh ok
With that I drive over to Lola house I didn't see her car in the drive but there was another car their I was just about to get out my car when Paolo come out the house
I watch him get in his car and sat their for a minute and smile and then drive off
So I start up my car and drive back home
B- you are back early
Josh is everything ok josh josh
I make my way to the bar with Breanna calling after me I pick up a glass and a bottle of brandy and went and sat next to her pouring myself a drink I had around six shot before I could speak
J- she is still fucking sleeping with him
B- what
J- Lola she is still sleeping with Paolo
B- are you sure
J- I saw them with my own eyes
B- you did
J- yes I went over there to talk to her and I saw him coming out her house smiling that's why she couldn't stay at my fucking party because she was meeting him
B- I'm sorry josh josh
J- you have no need to be sorry I was the fool to go over there
I had a few more shot and talk to Breanna some more next thing I know is I'm kissing her and she is kissing me back and we are making our way in the bedroom
Next morning
Oh fuck my head is killing me I try to sit up but there is a pair of arm and legs on top of me I open my eyes to see Breanna
Oh fuck what have I done
I try to get out the bed without waking her up
I got up and took a show while under the water it all come back to me
Me going over to Lola and seeing Paolo leaving the house
And me kissing Breanna and she kissing me back
But why would she kiss me back I can't remember what happen next but she should have stop me she know that I was drunk
Fuck she is Lola best friend
I got out the shower and make my way in the bedroom to see her waking up
B- good morning (smile)
J- morning
B- how are you feeling
J- my head is killing me and I can't remember what happen last night
B- what can't you remember
J- did we fuck
B- (laugh) josh language but to answer your question no we didn't you pass out when we were about to
Oh thank God for that I don't think I could live with myself if I had fuck Lola best friend
J- you should go to your room I don't want the kids to wake up and see you in here
B- yeah you are right
She got dress and I see that she was still in her knickers she made her way out my room and I carry on getting dress after I finish I went in the kids room to wake them up only to find Natalie awake on her bed
J- good morning princess
N- good morning daddy
J- are you ok you don't seems yourself
N- I'm ok just missing mummy
J- it's ok baby you will see mummy tomorrow
N- can I call her please
J- maybe later go and have your bath and come down for breakfast when u finish
N- ok
I make my way into the boys room and wake them up and went downstairs to make breakfast
While making breakfast Breanna come in the kitchen
B- do you want some help
J- no I'm ok I'm almost finish
B- ok I'll get the tea and coffee and juice
J- ok thanks
B- are we ok josh
J- yes of course we are
B- oh good I though you were regretting last night
L/JJ- dad is breakfast ready
J- yes sit down where is your sister
JJ- she is coming
J- oh there you are princess sit down and eat we have a lot plan for today
With that we all sat down and eat the boys were talking but I notice Nat hasn't said a word since she sat down
J- Nat are you ok
N- I'm fine daddy I'm finish please can I call mummy now
J- baby mummy is busy today but you will see her tomorrow
N- ok please can I go to my room
J- yes you can but we are leaving in a few minutes
N- thank you
J- what's wrong with your sister
JJ- I don't know
For the rest of the weekend we went out we meet up with Tom and Sara and even went over to my parents but Natalie has been quite and not talking to anyone unless they ask her a question I though it was me but she did it all weekend
And Breanna was making thing hard we'll be out and she would find away to sit next to me are she would find a reason to touch me
When I say to her to behave the kids or my friends or around she would say things like they don't notice are we always behave like this I don't know if it's since the kiss that I'm reading into thing but this will have to stop
Lola text me and said she is outside
J- kids your mum is here
They all run out the house and to there mum car I watch as Nat jump in her arms and she look over at me and look to be wiping Nat eyes I make my way out to see what's going on but she help her in the car and drive off so I went back inside