Her Past

Chapter 1

"Are you nervous?" Olivia sat down on the edge of her desk while Amanda stood there her heart pounding.

"No I'm not nervous. I wanted to ask you if you would be my maid of honor?" Amanda smiled.

"You want me in your wedding?" Olivia questioned.

"Yes." Amanda said.

"I will be honored." Olivia smiled.

"How are you and Tucker?" Amanda asked.

Olivia swallowed. "Not good. He wants to retire and me to leave my job."

"How do you feel about that?" Amanda took a seat next to Olivia.

"I got Noah to worry about. He just started high school. To be honest I'm not ready for anything like that." Olivia sighed.

"Do you love Tucker?" Amanda asked.

"I thought I did. I really don't think I do now." Olivia sighed.

"Is there someone else?" Amanda questioned.

"No there's no one else." Olivia smiled.

"I'm just asking." Amanda smiled.

"I know." Olivia picked up the picture of Alex Cabot. She traced her fingers over the picture.

"You never told me who she is." Amanda took the picture from Olivia. "She's beautiful."

Olivia stood up. "Can you give me a moment please?"

"Sure." Amanda handed the picture back to Olivia.

Amanda left Olivia alone. Olivia held on to the picture. Tears started to form in her eyes. Alex was the one she wanted to be with. She never got to tell her because of the men that were after her.

There was a knock at the door pulling Olivia away from her thoughts. Olivia cleared her throat. "Come in." Olivia said.

Nick Carisi stood in the doorway. "Hey. Noah's school called. He got into a fight. They need you to pick him up."

"Thanks Carisi." Olivia said.

Carisi shut the door. "Did you tell Amanda yet?" Carisi pointed to the picture.

"No I haven't. You're the only that knows." Olivia stood up.

"You broke up with Tucker. It's not the reason you said either." Carisi sighed. "Amanda needs to know and I can't keep hiding it from her. She's going to be my wife."

"I know." Olivia said softly.

"We can talk later." Carisi said. "Bring Noah to the house and we can all have dinner."

"Alright I will see you later." Olivia smiled as she grabbed her jacket.

Opening the door Olivia saw Amanda. She knew she had to tell her but she didn't know how. Carisi found the letter Olivia wrote that still remains in her desk. Sighing Olivia got into the elevator and headed down to her car.

Olivia got to the garage and went to her car. She started it up and headed towards Noah's school.

Within a few minutes she got to the school. Her heels clicked down the long hall and she stopped at the door to the office. Opening it she saw Noah sitting down on the bench his hands folded together.

"Mom it's not what you think." Noah said softly.

"We will talk later." Olivia said and walked into the principal's office.

"You must be Noah's mom." The woman behind the desk stood up and extended her hand.

"Olivia." Olivia said.

"Lyndsay." Lyndsay smiled. "I'm sorry I had to pull you away from work."

"It's okay. So what happened with Noah?" Olivia asked.

"Take a seat." Lyndsay pointed to an empty chair.

Olivia took a seat.

"As I told his uncle he got into a fight. As to what the nature of the fight was about I don't know." Lyndsay frowned. "The other kid has a broken nose."

"I'm sorry. I will definitely have a decision with Noah." Olivia said.

"He's going to be expelled for two days. He already has his homework for those days." Lyndsay frowned.

"It's fine. If I find anything out I will be sure to let you know." Olivia said.

"Thanks Olivia. Again I'm sorry I know that Noah is a good kid." Lyndsay said.

"You're welcome. Noah is a good kid." Olivia smiled and stood up. "I will call you if anything comes up."

"Sounds good. Call the school and they will put you right through to me. Have a good day." Lyndsay said.

"You as well." Olivia opened the door.

Noah stood up.

"Let's go." Olivia said softly.