Emeli

Chapter 16

Two years later

 Emeli Elle Marsri                                          

Renna is over my house helping get ready for my interview with Oprah I’ve written a book about my life so far I am only 23 years old now but still. My record company is booming my net worth is 22 billion dollars, I’m still legally married to Alexander. I heard he lives in new York, there is not a day that goes by I don’t think about him. “Stella can I see Aj please” I asked? Stella is my nanny, two years ago I hired her because I found myself with twins. I’m getting my hair and make-up done. ”hey pumpkin” I said to aj. “mama” he said. “yes mama” I said. “handsome boy, you’re going to go with aunt Renna to the play room” I said, “yay” he said.

“yay” I said waving my hands in the air. “where is my princess” I asked? “sleeping” Renna said. “Alice and Nellie should be home soon” I said. “Marko took them to the zoo” I said. “Emeli go get dressed” Renna said as she took Aj from me. I go get dressed in a bage lace peplum dress nice and short. With royal blue red bottoms I have my hair a totally different color. “Ms. Winfrey” I said as I greet her at the door. “Ms. Emeli” she said we hugged. “where are we doing the interview” she asked? “the camera guys are set up in my second living room and my garden” I said. “wonderful” she said. “we can walk around in the garden to start the interview” I said. “perfect” she said. “so how does it feel to be 23 and have a the whole world wanting you giving you all the power you could ask for” Oprah asked?

“ugh normal I mean I have four kids they keep my grounded my family keeps me grounded I don’t let it all go to me head considering the fact my parents worked hard” I said. “in your book you wrote The Real Emeli Elle Marsri was very good” Oprah said. “thank you” I said. “did you ever worry about your fan base when writing this book what people would think of you” she asked? “I did worry but then I just had to let it out this is me so people could judge, they could not like me anymore but I can’t change what already happened in my life to make others happy. I like people to know what they are dealing with and writing a book seemed like the best way” I said then we sat down in the garden. “in your book you talk about Mr. X, who is he” she asked as she smiled at me. I smiled back, “he’s my heart” I said. “what’s his name” she asked? “I wanted to protect him he doesn’t need people knowing our involvement paparazzi at his front door. I spared him” I said.

“is their still hope for you two” she asked? “only time will tell” I said. “Your relationship with Marko seemed very dark, you wrote in your book Depression takes over you, your thoughts and your feelings. You can have everything and it will still feel like nothing, because you have this fog surrounding you and you can’t see two inches on front of you, and until you come out of that fog, you feel lost and alone, what made you feel like that and do you still feel this way” Oprah asked?  I looked away I felt a little bit of that pain come back. “the whole relationship with Marko, having everything wasn’t enough I was young I wanted to live, I knew I had kids but I didn’t have to feel as trapped as I did when with him, and yes I had everything I needed, wanted things people would die for but it never was about the stuff it was about feeling alive and feeling whole, I don’t feel as deep as I was but I do from time to time get sad. But I handle things differently” I said. “Differently as in no more drinking” she asked? “no, no, no back then defiantly after my miscarriage I would get high and drink but now I don’t drink at all it takes me to a dark place” I said. “dark place” she repeated. “yes I drank before I turned 21 but only wine coolers and beer but when I turned 21 I would drink the strong stuff by it’s self my favorite Vodka  I would drink in cups that you would fill milk in and just take it and wake up the next morning throwing up” I said. “what do you do now” she asked?