Silent Scream

7.

Nate's Pov:

I can't believe I actually kissed her. It was amazing. I felt like I really liked her. I wanted to ask her out so badly, but after we pulled apart she said goodbye and proceeded to walk home. It wasn't even close to being dark despite being 7:00 at night.

After waiting for her to turn the corner I headed back inside and closed the door to come face to face with my dad.

"Hey, who was that?" He asked, his voice ruff and deep.

"J-just a girl from school d-dad..." I tried to make my way upstairs, but he put his hand on my shoulder.

"Hey, what's wrong son?"

"N-nothing.." I went passed him and ran upstairs. See my dads bipolar.. I'm always scared around him because when he's angry he yells at me and says awful things, but when he's happy he's a great dad. I'm just always scared that he will change.

I try to stay in my room most the time to avoid him getting angry with me. Though, when I am with him, I only speak when spoken to.

My mom, on the other hand, is a great mom. I'm lucky to have her as she puts up with my dad the most. He doesn't abuse us. Never. Just says things that he always regrets.

Ashton's Pov:

When I get home I'm relieved to see my dad's car isn't in the driveway. I run inside to find Dylan and Noah cuddling on the couch watching a movie I've never heard of. I closed the door and immediately felt a panic attack coming on.

I locked the front door like always and bolted upstairs to my room. I shut my bedroom door and sat behind it on the floor. I heard quiet voices coming from downstairs. Then the sound of two different people coming upstairs.

Knock..knock...knock.. "Ash....you okay?" It was my brother, but I could only assume that Noah was with him.
I knock on the door once to say that I'm not okay. "Ash...can you move so we can come in?" I shuffle away from the door and it opens.

In comes an extremely worried Dylan and Noah. "I'm sorry Ash I've never been very good at helping wth panic attacks..." he kneels down in my level. So does Noah.

"Here let me try...Ash....look at me....it's okay....I know it's hard trust me, but from what Dylan's told me about you...you're very strong. You can do this. I used to have panic attacks and my sister always has. I get it. I really do. But you've gotta stay strong..." Noah says while rubbing my back.

After about 5 minutes I was okay. 'Thank you Noah..' I signed. Dylan translated to him.

"Your very welcome Ash. I just wanna be friends with you. You seem like a very sweet girl.." Noah said as he and Dylan helped me up. Noah gave me a hug. I was resentful at first, but gave in. Dylan then gave me a hug and I hugged him back.

"Are you okay?" Dylan asked. I nodded. "We're gonna head back downstairs. If you need anything that's where we'll be okay?"  I nodded again.

Once they left I pulled out my
diary/journal thingy. Basically the place where I write down all my feelings.

I opened to my earlier entries and started reading them.

     Today Aaron left. My little brother Aaron has been in a coma for the past 5 months and finally woke up. My older sister left to go live in London and she will probably get to adopt him. He's lucky. Dad disowned him and now he gets out. I miss him. He was the youngest of us all and dad hit him. I still can't believe it, but it happened. At least he's safe with my sister. Also she's getting married. She met some guy named Dan in London. He sounds nice. I wish I could go to London and escape this living hell.

That was written four months ago. I flipped a few pages and found one about two girls who I still love. Even though they left.

     I saw that Gabriella posted she's getting married. I'm really happy for her. Her and Serena went to my school. They graduated a few years before Dylan does. They used to always come over and I loved seeing them. They were some of my good friends until they went to that concert and met those guys. That changed them. Now they're both married with kids. I wish I could see them again.

Gabriela and Serena. There's so much I could say about those two girls. They were good friends with Dylan, but after they graduated they kinda forgot about us.

I flipped a few more pages and found my most recent entry.

     I just got out of the hospital. Again. Bruce broke two of my ribs and I had a panic attack at the same time. It really sucked, but I'm happy it happened because I met my idol. Skylar Fischbach and Ethan Nestor just happened to be there for the Make a Wish that day. I'm so happy I got to meet them!! We talked and I actually spoke. First time in years. Sadly I'm going back to not talking. It's for the best.

I glanced at the clock in my room: 8:59. Great. At least tomorrow's Friday. I decided that I was just going to try to get some sleep. I walked downstairs and told Dylan and Noah goodnight. Dylan seemed to see that I'd had a rough day so didn't ask why I was going to sleep so early.

They said goodnight and I went upstairs to change. After I got into my pajamas and hit my lights I crawled into my warm bed. The one place I was ever truly safe.

A/N
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