i miss you ;; joshler

Part 4.

tyler
Before I knew it the bell had rung and all that I was focused on was getting out of that classroom door as fast as I could.

That was until I heard a voice from behind me call my name.

"Tyler"

I turned around to meet the most beautiful oak eyes I've ever seen.

"You dropped your papers"
"Uh, th-thanks" I said with an awkward smile. Our hands brush against each others and the monotone red came back to meet my checks once again.
"No problem" he shyley flashed his teeth through a smile. A little crooked but perfect to me. I must have been staring when I noticed his lips meet at an alarmingly fast rate.
"We, um, we should hang out sometime" Josh says, squinting his eyes slightly at the silence before my answer.
"I mean you could, um, you could come sit with me and Mel if you'd like"
His eyes went from a light oak to a sad, watery coffee.
"You...you know I can't do that" he says looking down at the ground.
My heart sank to the pit of my chest. Of course he wouldn't be seen with me and Mel. But in that moment I had never felt more embarrassed.
"No, you're right" I say with a bleak tone. We stood in an awkward silence for a few crestfallen seconds.
"I've got to go, bye Josh" I say as my eyes meet his momentarily.

As hard as it was I turned away from the boy I had loved for as long as I could remember, I had to, only to meet my best friends eyes across the courtyard. I remember the prolonged walk over to her, my small frame hunched over as the brittle winter air kissed my sunken pale face.

"I told you not to waste your time with him, he'll just break your heart and leave it hangin" she said with an "I told you so" tone as a sat down next to her.
"I just can't get him off m-"
"My mind. Yeah you tell me everyday" she says as she continuously chews her baby pink gum.
"Mel, I was supportive of you and Dallon. Why can't you just be happy for me for once!" I bellow at her, inaudible for the few people sitting around us.
"Ty, I can't be happy for you when the guy you like is a fucking jerk!" She says back.
"Y'know what. I'm not feeling too good, I'm going to go home." I say jadedly as I pick up my things and begin to walk in the direction of the office.
"We have English next lesson" she yells as her arms fly up in the air.
"Well I guess you'll have to sit by yourself" I say back in a smart-ass manner.