His Best Girl: Her Secret Legacy-Part 1

Time Ripped Us All Apart

*song only for the feels*

Setting: takes place just after Captain America: The Winter Soldier; Carter is now 14...

Ricky's been leaving me to do my own thing while he's out on missions or whatever-not his smartest idea-so I've been practicing my hacking skills on S. H. I. E. L. D.'s data base; they've detected me, but haven't caught me yet. I've also been visiting the graves and today I thought I'd spend the day with mother. They still won't let me go on too many missions because I'm "too young" or whatever. I thought about coming out to my old man, but now's not the best time. He just found out his best friend is alive and a brainwashed assassin at that-I watch the news when I'm bored-I also "over heard" him flirting with a lady when I "accidentally" hacked into the cameras on the floor below ours. I don't know who she is, but she better stay away from my old man or she'll have me to deal with; I don't care if he wants to date, he has every right to...after mom dies that is, till then though...ladies be warned: go near him, you die...

"Michaela Carter to see Peggy Carter," I say to the lady at the front desk

"Relationship?" She asks

"Granddaughter," I say...god, I hate lying

"Go on in," she says

"Thank you," I say as I go

My mother is 93 and her memory is only getting worse; it's hard to watch really, but I have to come anyway...she's my mommy, and because it doesn't seem like Agnes and Thomas visit her. I stop short of her room door when I hear the sound of my old man's voice laughing...they didn't tell me he was here, they usually tell me. I slowly back away from the door-heart pounding and terrified-I move to the wall just next to the door, I lean against it and slip down to the floor. I sit there quietly on the floor and bury my face in my knees as I listen to them talk and laugh. I feel tears slip down my face each time mom relives see dad again for the first time...

"Steve..." she says in disbelief

"Yea," I just barely hear my old man whisper in pain

"you're-you're alive...you came-you came back," she says each time and with both sadness and joy in her voice

"Yea Peggy," he whispers and I can hear the sadness in his voice

"It's been so long," I hear my mother say as if ready to cry

"..." he's silent

"So long," my mother repeats

"Well I couldn't leave my best girl," my dad says, "not when she owes me a dance..."

This happens in their conversation a great number of times as I sit against the wall outside the room listening to them talk and I cry harder each time it happens. It's not fair...I hate God, and time...I hate them both. It's because of these two things that we can never be a normal family. It's because of God I never knew my father and because of him I lost fifty-five years with my mother. Missed out on all the fights we would've had, all the fun, all the birthdays...all the love; I was barely nine years old for god sake! And time...time ripped us all apart! Why...why did he let this happen to us? Why did he take my father away from me before I was even born? Why did he rip me away from my mother for so long only to wake up again and be half way to losing her?

"Why?" I whisper between tears, "why is he so cruel?"

I have mom, Ricky, and Charlie left from my past and yet...I feel like I have no one; no who understands me anymore, no one my age. Why was I even born if this was what was planned to happen to me? I just want my old life back, but that'll never happen...I must've been on the floor crying for hours, because next I hear is a voice over the intercom saying that visiting hours are over. I stand as I mother room door open and close again; my old man now standing next to me, but not noticing me here. My hoodie up, sunglasses on, and hands in my pockets-like always-I quietly follow him out and back to the apartments. He doesn't seem to notice me following him until we reach the front door-he holds it open for me and I just nod my head in thanks-I take the stairs instead of the elevator to avoid both the awkwardness, as well as him thinking I'm stalking him.

About halfway up the stairwell to Ricky's floor, I lose it and break down crying over everything again:more than half of my friends are dead, Ricky and Charlie are old men, my mom doesn't always remember and could literally go any day now. I can't even yell at Uncle Howard about it cause he's dead too...with a sniffle and a sigh, I make my way back downstairs and head in the direction of H. Q. I'm going to the gym to punch something...

"Agent Rogers!" Comes Coulson's voice after a few hours in the gym

"Sup Phil?" I ask

"..." he gives me a look

"Fine; Coulson," I say rolling my eye...like it makes a difference which I call him

"Fury has a mission for you," he says handing me a file

"..." I look through it, "what does he want me to do?"

"Bring her in," he says

"An eleven year old girl," I say, "really?"

"Just bring her in Rogers," he says starting to leave

"I prefer my first name Phil," I mock

"..." he looks back at me, "get it done Carter."

"Yea fine," I sigh, "I'll have it done in less than fourth-eight hours."

"Oh and Carter..." he says as he reaches the door

"..." I stare at him

"Stop trying to hack S. H. I. E. L. D.'s data base," he says and leaves while mumbling something I can't hear under his breathe

"This should be fun," I say to myself, "time to play Bridget..."