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Magnus POV
I'm trying to not cry while Izzy Jace and I are looking for anything that can help us save my blue eyed shadowhunter. I had big plans for today which did not include what we are doing now. I was gonna portal us to Paris for a few days. On the first night I was gonna propose. Now that might never happen. I feel the tears start to form.
" excuse me for a moment" I say leaving the room. I didn't want the almost emotionless shadowhunters to see the High Warlock of Brooklyn crying. I walk through the institute trying to hide my tears as I make my way to the infirmary. I make a chair appear next to where Alec is laying. I start to cry and talk to him.
" I'm so sorry this happened to you. You don't deserve this. Jace shouldn't have left you he's your parabati. He should have been there for you. You didn't have to sacrifice yourself for them😭"

Alec's POV
I find myself standing in the middle of the infirmary. I hear someone crying behind me. I turn around and see that it is Magnus crying.
"Magnus baby what's wrong!?"
He doesn't answer. I see that he is crying over a body. My body. What's going on?
"MAGNUS!!"
I try to get is attention but it doesn't work. I placed my hand on his shoulder trying to comfort him but he doesn't hear, see, or feel me. It's like I'm in another dimension. How do I get back?
I see Jace walk into the room.
"Jace! JACE CAN YOU HEAR ME!! HELP!!"
He walked past me and went to pMagnus. He sat next to him and said "I'm sorry. This is all my fault. I should have stayed with him."
Magnus didn't reply. He must be hurting so much right now. I would be doing the same if it was him in my position. I hate seeing my warlock like this.