alive / joseph | ✔️

| t h r e e |

after me and tyler said our goodbyes to josh, we started making our way back to the apartment building. it was silent all the way there, but a comfortable silence. when we walked up the stairs to our hallway, we just looked at each other for a moment.

"well, reagan it was really nice to meet you. i had fun today," he said, scratching the back of his neck. i smiled.

"i still can't believe i met my two favorite people on this entire earth today, but i had fun as well," i said as i rocked back and forth on my heels.

"oh! here, take my number, in case you need anything!" tyler said, holding his hand out for my phone. i placed my phone in his hand and he typed his number in before handing it back to me. "i mean it, if you need anything at all, call me," he said, with the most serious tone i've heard from him today. i nodded and turned to go into my apartment.

i opened the door, and turned to look at him one last time. "goodbye reagan," he smiled. i waved and shut the door. i leaned against it and smiled to myself, replaying today's events.

+

"Reagan, i don't even know why you try so hard to fit in here! everyone hates you!! why do you think your dad left before you were even born, and why did your mom commit suicide if she actually loved you so much?!"

i blinked back tears and looked down at my feet. "s-she was going through a really rough patch, ok? just please, please leave her out of it."

she scoffed. "fine, i'll leave your mom out of it, but only because she was a pathetic loser that had nothing better to do than jump off buildings," she smirked.

i wiped my eyes with the back of my hand.

"but i will not leave you out of this. you deserve to be treated much worse than how i treat you. god, i wish you would just kill you self like your pathetic excuse of a mother!" she screamed at me. i looked up so my eyes can meet hers.

"if that's what you and everyone else wants, then ok," i said before walking away.

i woke up in tears. i screamed into my pillow, wishing this would just stop. i cried and cried before i finally took my face out of my pillow to check the time.

3:16 am

i sighed and looked at my phone, contemplating whether or not i should call him. he did say to call him if i needed anything, and right now, i just need a friend. i didn't really know if we were friends, but i know he's someone that can talk to me and make me feel better.

i picked up my phone and scrolled through my contacts. i clicked on his name and let my thumb hover over the call button. i pressed my thumb down and held the phone to my ear and waited for him to pick up. i heard his groggy voice say 'hello' and i opened my mouth to say something.

"h-hey tyler, i-it's reagan. could you maybe come over? i kinda need someone right now," i said, blinking back a few tears.