alive / joseph | ✔️

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tyler and i had been sitting on the couch watching supernatural when he asked a question.

"what team are you on?" he asked. i gave him a look of puzzlement.

"what?" i asked, unsure of what he meant. he pointed to the tv and continued.

"team sam or team dean?" a look of realization covered my face and i brought my legs up onto the couch and put them on tyler's lap.

"oh! definitely team dean." i said with the cheesiest grin on my face. he nodded and laughed.

"i see," he said with a chuckle.

we continued to watch the show for another ten minutes, but tyler grabbed the remote and paused it, catching me off guard.

"hey what ar-" i started but he cut me off.

"can i see your scars?" he asked carefully, holding out his hand. i hesitated for a moment, but put my wrist in his hand, suddenly becoming nervous.

he pushed up my sleeve, and ever so lightly ran his thumb over my scars. my breath hitched in my throat, and i chocked back the tears that had formed in my eyes.

"you know what i would say before i would cut?" he whispered, still looking at my scars. i shook my head and his eyes met mine.

"sometimes you gotta bleed to know, that you're alive and have a soul," he whispered again. i closed my eyes for a split second and a tear rolled down my cheek. i can't believe i just heard him say that in person. he swiped the tear away from my face, his touch sending shivers down my spine.

"reagan, i know i haven't known you for very long, and it makes me feel good to know that you trusted me with your secrets when you had only known me for a day..." he trailed off.

i looked down, then back up again. "i just knew that i could trust you," i said, exhaling a large breath.

he pulled me into a hug and held me for a moment, and my crying had slowed to a stop. he pulled away and stood up. he held out his hand for me to take and i gladly took it.

"there's something i want to show you," he whispered. i nodded and grabbed tyler's black sweatshirt that he left here yesterday and threw it on. i slipped on my black vans and we walked out the door.

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"tylerrr, where are we going? my legs hurrrt," i groaned. he chuckled and stop to kneel down.

"get on my back," he said. i rapidly shook my head no. i backed away from him a little bit.

"no tyler, i can't. i don't want to break your back..." i trailed off, looking down at my feet. he stood up straight again and walked over to me. he put his finger under my chin and lifted up my head to look me in the eyes.

"listen to me, never say that about yourself! do you understand me? you're already underweight as it is!" he said, giving me a look of concern and sympathy. i blinked away tears and nodded.

"i'm okay walking though, thanks for offering to carry me," i said before walking in the direction we were going before. tyler jogged to catch up to me.

"it's right around here," he said, turning around a corner that led to a path that leads into a forest. he stopped at the entrance to the forest and held out his hand.

"are you sure you're not taking me out here so you can murder me?" i said sarcastically. he playfully rolled his eyes and grabbed my hand, leading me into the forest.

"this place is beautiful," i said, looking at the trees as we passed by them. he scoffed.

"you think this is beautiful?" he pushed back and branch, and behind that branch was something ten-times more beautiful than the trees, maybe more.

i walked through the small opening, and gazed around at the colorful flowers surrounding the small pond. i stopped and took a deep breath. the air smelled like lavender; it was amazing.

i felt a hand wrap lightly around my wrist. i looked down to see that all too familiar tattoo around his wrist. i looked up to meet tyler's eyes, and smiled.

"thank you, tyler, for bringing me here. it's beautiful," i said, taking another look around. he chuckled.

he pulled me towards a bench made from stone that sat right in front of the pond. we sat down and sat in a comfortable silence.

"not like you," he whispered. i gave him a look of confusion.

"what?" i said, still not understanding what he was talking about. his eyes met mine and he took a few breath.

"you said this place was beautiful, but it's not as beautiful as you," he whispered.

i could literally feel myself stop breathing. all i could hear was my heartbeat in my ears.

did tyler joseph just call me beautiful?

"i-i don't know w-what to say...thank you tyler, it means a lot. not a lot of people call me beautiful," i blushed and looked down. i exhaled, and then realized i had still been holding my breath.

i felt tyler's finger under under my chin as he lifted up my head to meet my gaze. "that's the problem, though. you're too beautiful, but you're not told enough. i just don't understand..." he trailed off.

"i want to make you believe it," he whispered as he began to lean in.

i froze and my eyes grew wide. was he going to kiss me?!

once again, my breath hitched in my throat as he was so close that our lips were brushing against each other.

"i will make you believe that you are lovely," was all i heard before he pushed our lips together.

woah woah woah ok how did you guys like this.

i feel like this is going too fast??? is it ?!?

ok sorry for taking so long to update lol ok bye