The One [ 4OU TOUR ] | Ethan Dolan

F I F T E E N

I was waiting nervously at the terminal as I saw two muscular figures come strolling through the gates.

I had been thinking about whether I should come to the airport or not all week, but I decided I should. To see Grayson at the very least.

I jumped off my feet and lunged into Grayson's arms cause he was well ahead of Ethan.

"Hey! I missed you!" I said into his shoulder as he spun me around.

I quickly let go when I opened my eyes and saw my boyfriend standing behind Gray, patiently waiting. I quickly glanced up at Gray giving him a slight smile before stepping around him to Ethan.

"Hi" he smiled, making me weak in the knees. It's been so long since I've seen it in person.

"I missed you so much" he said, pulling me in for a kiss.

I gave into my emotions and kissed him back, even if it was just for a brief moment.

"I missed you too E" I said, giving him a slight smile, but still staying distant.

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When we made it back to the Dolan household, the normality was making me uneasy.

It was as if things had never changed since they left. But they have. I just don't know if I was ready to face that fact yet.

"K mom, me and Blair and going to go upstairs for a minute" Ethan said, excusing us for the conversations going on downstairs.

Ethan's strong arm was grabbing me, gently pulling me up the stairs towards his room in a playful way.

He shut the door quietly, before turning towards me and smashing his lips into mine.

"I missed you so much" he said between breaths.

And I missed him.

I tugged at his shirt as he threw it over his head exposing his perfectly toned body. I ran my fingers along his warm chest as I continued to enjoy his soft lips.

"Wait" I paused, throwing myself away from him.

What was I doing? So much for control Blair.

" we need to talk" I say, looking up at Ethan shyly, while adjusting my bra strap back into place on my shoulder.

"Look I know tour must have been fun and all, but I think we both know things have changed" I started, sitting down on the edge of the bed.

"What? I don't understand. I just got back" Ethan said, looking confused.

"Look Ethan..... I know" I said, holding a strong face.

And for the first time in our relationship, I looked upon my boyfriend and he stared back at me terrified.

Ethan sat there for a moment, washed away in his thoughts. He turned to face me slowly.

"How did you find out?" He sighed.

"Are you fucking serious right now?" I burst into rage

"You cheated on me ... and your first concerned was how I fucking found out about it?" I spit towards him.

He sat there, looking down at his feet.

"You're fucking pathetic Ethan Dolan, I hope she was worth it" I say storming out of the room slamming the door behind me.

I wasn't in the mood to hear anything he had to say right now.

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To my surprise Cam has been helping through a lot the past couple of days.

She always has an ear open and has gone through similar stuff to give me advice.

I carried on with my school days as normal, but I felt different.

I felt strong for standing up to Ethan, but a large part of me also feels destroyed, like he ripped my heart out and is not giving it back.

The end of school bell couldn't come any faster. I literally sprinted out of my seat to make it to my car in the student parking lot.

I was dazing off, swinging my keys around pointlessly until I stopped dead in my tracks. I swear i was having déjà vu cause there was Ethan, standing in front of my car with flowers, just like the first time he found me in New Jersey.

"What are you doing here?" I questioned, giving him the eyebrow.

"I came here to make things right" Ethan said, looking more devastated then I've ever seen him. "I love you Blair"

"Look, I know I fucked up. Big time. And I know I hurt you in a way I could only imagine. It's not fair to you, and it's not right. I didn't deserve you before and I certainly don't deserve you now but you make me beyond happy and I would love if you...." He trailed off, catching his breath before resetting his thoughts.

"Okay, Blair, she was a mistake, a one time thing.  The minute it was over all I could think about was you. I haven't been able to eat, sleep or even function because I've been so overcome with guilt. I feel terrible. And what makes things worst is I've inflicted all this pain I'm feeling onto the love of my life, and the girl I'll probably never get over"

"Please" Ethan said, reaching for my hand, "I haven't lost hope yet"

"And I guess you haven't either" Ethan's smiled, playing with the bracelet he bought me on our first date back in New York, after feeling it under my sweater reaching for my hand.

I smiled, pulling up my sleeve to expose the delicate silver with the date of when we met still embroidered on the front. I never took it off. I thought about it, but could never bring myself to do it.

And I guess that was all the clarification I needed.

"Ya, I guess I feel like same way" I said, looking into the beautiful hazel eyes I missed so much.

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