Loving him

Chapter 4

With tears streaming down my face I pushed my self even closer to my mother who held me in a tight hug. 'You have to be strong sweetheart' She exclaimed and tightened her arms around me. 'I know mom it just hurts so much, I've always imagined how love would be, but never in my life have I thought that it could bring me so much pain' I said with a sob. We sat like this for a good hour. When I finally stopped crying I felt very tired. Sleep was definitely what I needed.

The next morning, I tried to think positive and make this day a little bit better. I've put some makeup on and wore a black pencil skirt with a white blouse and black stilettos. I felt satisfied with what I saw in the mirror. I internally smiled at myself and made my way down to the kitchen. My mother was already gone, but she left some pancakes over for me with a pink sticker on it saying "Be strong" I really love my mom she's the best I've no idea what I did to deserve such a loving parent.

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'Rose I have some work for you' my boss came in with a grin on his face. I really don't know what's wrong with him. Lately he's been acting pretty odd though, but whatever it's probably just my mind trying to trick me. 'What is it' I asked looking up from my desktop. 'I want you to send the invitations to everyone who will be attending the ball' his face was back to being serious and motionless. 'Sure I'll start right away'

About two ours later I finished sending all the invitations. It was lunch time so I took the lift down to the main lobby and waited for Kelly. When I started working at the Martinez industries she was the one that showed me around and helped me with everything. Right now we are good friends, it's nice to have someone to talk to that doesn't judge you. 'How long have you been here R?' Kelly walked into the lobby and asked. 'Just a minute I actually just got here, but are you ready cause I am really hungry' I said while she just laughed at me. It's not funny though I really am hungry. 'Don't worry I am ready let's get you some food girl' Kelly answered with a big grin on her face. My favorite restaurant was just 5 minutes away from the building so we just walked there. When we were finally seated in the corner of the restaurant I looked at the menu but stopped when I saw the look on Kelly's face, I knew what she was going to ask me. 'So how is it going with you and that dumb friend of yours?' Kelly looked at me and waited for me to say something. 'Don't call him that!' I said a little irritated. 'Stop it Rose, you know what I mean, only an idiot wouldn't realize that you like him.' I knew she had a point though but still he was my friend too. 'Let's just talk about something else okay?' I looked at her pleadingly. 'Okay girl, but don't think I will let go of this so easily, we will talk about this another time' I shook my head at her stubbornness and gazed back at the menu card.

At the end of the day I was worn out, I shut the door to my office and when I was about to finally step into the elevator someone grabbed me by my shoulder. I immediately turned around, I felt my head hitting something hard. Was it a wall? I asked myself, but then again why the hell would there be a wall in the middle of the hall. I opened my eyes and didn't find a wall but a chest of a man with a nice blue button up shirt. I looked up and was about to say something but before I could do this David smashed his lips on mine. I tried to get out of his grasp but it didn't work. I thought for a second, then I did the only thing that came to my mind. I rammed my knee up into his groin with all the strength I had left. He fell to the ground and let go of me. Then I ran down the stairs as fast as I could. When I excited the building I sprinted to my car. When I got inside I let out a breath that I was holding for a long time. I turned on the engine and drove off.

When I got home I run straight up to my room. Some would just say that it was just a kiss, but for me it was much more. Nobody has ever forced themselves on me. What I just don't understand is why would David do something like that. I let out a sigh and fell on my bed. After five minutes I've heard my phone buzz on my nightstand. I reached out and looked at the screen.
'Hey, how r u ?'
'????'
'Text me back or I'll have to go and check myself if ur fine..'
Ryan was really being a little annoying, he was acting as if she would do something to her self. I agree I am depressed but not suicidal. Everything was just so fucked up right now. Nothing made sense anymore.
'I'm fine, stop worrying so much'
'You know I can't right, you're my friend and I want you to be happy'
'I know, I just don't want you constantly worrying about me'

'Rose come here you need to eat something dear' my mom was right, i need to eat something and relax a little bit. 'I'm coming'

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'Shit' I stood up and run to my bathroom. If I don't hurry up I'll be late, that definitely can't happen. 'Shit' I can't go back there after what happened yesterday. What am going to do now? I walked back to my room and sat on my bed. Why is everything so messed up. 'Ugh' I let out a sigh and dialed the number of the administration. This was the only thing I could think of. 'Hallo you speaking with Dianna Williams from the Martinez corporation, how can I help you?' I felt relieved when I heard Dianna's voice. 'Hey, it's me Rose I won't be at the office today, I'm pretty sick. Could you inform Mr.Martinez about my absence ?'
'Ohh Rose it's you, sure I'll let him know. I hope you get well soon'
'Thank you very much Diana, I hope so too, bye'
'Bye, take care of yourself'
After I hung up I felt a bit guilty for lying to her, she was always super nice to me, but there was nothing else I could do. One thing is sure this is not the end, I still need to explain to my mother why I didn't go to work. It shouldn't be that hard, but my mother will probably get suspicious and ask me many questions. I certainly don't want to worry my mom more than she already is, so telling her about yesterday's incident was surely out of the question.
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I hope you enjoyed it.

Lots of Love,
~K