The black closed in on me, again and again. I couldn't see straight, but Josh was red, and I could see him clearly, as though the sun on a rainy day.
He rested his head against mine, I sighed. He was so close, I loved it. It made me feel alive. I couldn't let go. I couldn't let go of his hands. Soft yet worn. He was the sweetest taboo. Damn him and his pure heart.
"Josh, can you hear my thoughts?"
He shuffled his head, as though straining to hear what I was thinking. "No, but I want you to tell me... What you're thinking." I smiled gently. Well, he sure knew how to get it out of me. Even when I didn't want to, he knew how to make me try. He knew how to get me to talk.
"I'm thinking about how your arms feel like home. Like nothing else matters except us in this moment. The rain could pour and I know you would cover me, you seem like a guardian angel, as though beautiful but mysterious..."
"Oh really?" He chuckles slightly, he's cute when he does that. Well he's cute all the time isn't he?
I laughed "Yeah, it kinda adds up to something bigger. When I'm with you, I'm the happiest guy alive. I'm so grateful to have you."
He lifted his head off mine and lifted my chin,"Tyler, I've been waiting for you to say that for so long."
I couldn't resist anymore. My lips crashed onto his, it was... More than words could say. I felt alive again. The colour around us shot back into place, no more black mist around me.
And I couldn't see red.
Wait. Where was Josh?
"Josh? Josh where are you?" I screamed at the top of my lungs. He wasn't there. He was no where to be seen. He had gone and I couldn't find red anymore.
Black.
All went completely black.
I woke up again, gasping for air in... The same place? In the open? Wait... What about that kiss? Josh was sitting right in front of me with a worried expression.
"Dammit Tyler I thought you were dead! I didn't know what to do... I was so worried!" He was frantic, I could tell, he was so cute at it thought, it almost made me feel guilty.
"I'm sorry Josh... I guess I ruined the moment huh?" I laughed slightly, and I could see Josh had relaxed a bit. Damn, I always do the wrong thing at the wrong time.
"No, no you didn't. I... I..." He seemed to be lost for words and honestly I don't blame him. I had passed out at a bad time, a moment we were sharing. God why am I like this? I don't know. I'm feeling way more confident now than I did before. Josh made me feel on top of the world... Damn I want that kiss again.
"Just kiss me you wierdo..." I grabbed his face and pulled it close to mine. I could feel a smirk on his lips as he pulled me closer. Damn he's a good kisser. He's never been one to use someone, he's never done that to me, his kiss felt so meaningful, so... Full of... Something. Shit, I can't think straight. I just can't stop thinking about how much this moment means.
I pulled away at last, and I began to feel dizzy again.
Shit. Shit shit shit. I didn't wanna pass out again. I couldn't. I could feel my throat tighten, and I couldn't breath.
"I can't breathe, Josh help me I can't breathe..."
